
Change is hard, It’s one of the hardest things I’ve had to go through. I’m not going to blame my lack of enthusiasm for change on my Zodiac sign or my enneagram number — I don’t think change happens easy for most people (and if it does — screw them all).
Yesterday I read a wonderful article by Bryan Ye (How To Wake Up at 5 A.M. Every Day). Out of all the brilliant information this article offered, my biggest takeaway is to not change everything all at once — that is the exact formula for failure and stress due to failure. As creatures of habit, deciding to switch up our whole routine from one day to the next is a suicide mission; I don’t care how Gung-Ho we are about our new way of life — Nice And Steady “Wins The Race”.
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Today is my first day of change. Let me start off by expressing what areas in my life need a good restructuring
FIND OUT WHO THE FUCK I AM! My significant other and I have been together for six years now and have spent every moment together- we love each other to death but I’m not ready to die. I’ve lost myself in this relationship, I ask his advice on EVERY SINGLE “problem” big or miniscule. I even started to hate going ANYWHERE without him and I mean anywhere. SO as suggested by many people waking up earlier and having me time is a must: to take a walk, jam out to some tunes, paint, jeez I don’t even know what I as an individual like anymore! You guys get the point — moving on!
WORK ON MY WRITING! I love writing, it’s easy for me to get lost in the process, but I know consistency is the only way to get better and to reach my full potential — daily writings need to happen.
CREATE SOME KIND OF ROUTINE TO STICK WITH AKA DISCIPLINE! Because of my current profession I have so much free time! It’s actually a little ridiculous how amazing my life is set up for me to succeed. As a model I get paid a good amount of money for a few hours, not to mention I only work a few days out of the month. YES! — you read that right! I am dancing around with a golden ticket instead of cashing it in because of lack of discipline. And let’s be honest this golden ticket does expire, I’m not going to be young and doe eyed looking forever. (just this year I realized my young, bright eyed, care free, (well practiced) look isn’t as sharp as it used to be).
STUDY PHILOSOPHY !Teaching myself philosophy is on the todo list: to make sure I like it as much as I think I do, to understand what I would like to do with the knowledge of philosophy and then decide if school is necessary.
AND LASTLY, EXERCISE!

Now this is quite a bit of change, adding: studying, art, exercise, writing, and uncovering my individual likings which all start with going to bed three hours earlier than I currently do. JESUS! It sounds easier to become a stripper and hope Drake somehow finds me and what’s to save a ho (not that all strippers are hos, it’s only an expression — relax! I’m already secretly stressing, I don’t need your politically correct overly conscious comments right now!)
In short — Wish me luck, I’ll be exploring different methods of easing the pain of change, I'll keep you readers updated and meanwhile check out this awesome article that makes me feel like there is hope for me yet. (How To Wake Up At 5 A.M. Every Day)
