You wrote, “I credit the freedom and peace I have now to dropping two things, alcohol and religion.”
That’s interesting because I honestly think religion is helping me. I practiced “Spirituality” for a long time thinking that organized Religion had nothing to offer me.
But, now I’m going to Church again. I decided to try the “original” Catholic Church and it’s so much better — for me — than any Protestant denomination I ever attended.
Consider looking at religion from a different viewpoint. Try a different one or a different version. See what happens.