THE SHORT FILM OF LOVE

There I was, walking down the aisle towards my classroom.

And, there I saw, a bundle of joy fluttering towards me, in the air.

Well not the butterfly, not literally in the air. I felt that way.

What did I just see?”I said to myself.

I felt like I was the one to introduce the word” cute” to the human race, with the my easily earned result of describing how I felt, when it just happend. Wffew!! I just skipped some time.

Okay, now that was all cool and overwhelming for a fresher from a heaven in Chennai to some asharam under the foothills of ooty. I was all smiles walking the few steps to the my classroom.

People were definitely so different from my previous school. Here, everyone had their own movie and they were the Hero in it.

Since, it was a bad movie, I opted to be the villain, haha.

I was seated in the front corner of the classroom, for the first time in my life.

Okay, what can I expect from an asharam?

A “Drop the beat” entry?

Nah, just the meditation and mantras for the rest of the year.

Now, I had the mixed feeling of happy and sad, at the same time.

I can’t help it anymore, I digged out the part why I was happy for.

THE BUNDLE OF JOY!

OH! How I missed it, already, forgetting to realize it was just few minutes back, when I saw her.

Oh come on, Aarav! Its not your fault, you skipped some time, when that happened.

Apparently, it means I haven’t seen her at all.

There I was, introducing myself to the YOGIs of my class.

And, The Guruji for the next one hour came in rushing. We all had a happy faces at 9:03, as he enters

At 9:04, the classes were on, the guruji started writing the bits of today’s class.

I was like,”WTF!?”

Don’t they get introduced to the newbies and all that fun for the day one?

Mehh/! It felt like an year , already.

Okay, now where you sow, so you reap.

I should reap it here anyway.

The morning session, guruji after guruji, was over.

It was lunch session, just as the professor stepped out of my classroom.

HAHAH!!!! That sound, when the whole class chose to remain silent for atleast the next few seconds of our professor absence. This one, was alluring all the way to all the corners.

Okay, just like every other person. I was interested in knowing the source of this courageous bell.

I turned diagonally back right, heading towards the source.

And…..

I decided to blame myself for the comment running in my head.

It was her.

THE BUNDLE OF JOY!

Her smile was the best curve, one could ask for.

I felt the one’s who had described about the beautiful moon and its curves were so lame.

In the world, where beauty not admired is a sin.

I was the one, to add cuteness to that sin list.

I don’t prefer being a sinner.

I decided spending the rest of the break, making justice to that phrase.

Okay, now I am all charged and “Bring it on” Kinda mode now for the other half of today’s session.

TRRIIIIINNNNG!! A sound sicker than morning alarm flew in the air, screeching to the ears, as I woke up from the dream (where I was about the catch the fish , sitting on the branches of the only tree, in the middle of the sea)

Yaaay! The day was over”, the yogi behind me was telling to another.

That was a smooth ride, though. I definitely skipped some time here as well.

We all stood to leave the class and I was just half asleep and that didn’t stop me from looking at the Only source of survival in this asharam.

She came closer as we reached the door at the same time.

Trust me, that was not pre-planned.

She was glowing!!! Man, was she for real, or I felt she was glowing because it been hours since I had my eyes wide opened.

However, I enjoyed it anyway.

Then, I had this friend of mine from 6TH GRADE back from my hometown school, Helen! Meeting her was the lifeline, we mutually shared in this asharam.

The best thing about this asharam is that 10 minutes walk after the dinner in the beautiful gallery of the asharam with the dim lights and the breezy night chills, while admiring the foothills. We call it”GALL WALK”

I made sure to make the best out of it.

I met nive, everyday during the GALL WALK.

And, happened to see the bundle of joy during the walk and as she crossed us, she waved a hi to Helen with a wide smile, I could dive into and Helen reciprocated, generously.

And, couldn’t help myself from diverting our conversation about the dinner that sucked to the bundle of joy.

I asked helen,”She is my classmate, I believe. Whats her name?” trying to penetrate the gentleman inside of me.

Helen replied,”Jeni!! Jeniffer!! The craziest and the cololest girl in the gang”.

Okay, Now again “WOW! Jeni! Jeni!!!” I said it in my head a couple of times, before which I decided to ask helen to bring her to the gall walk tomorrow. She was pretty cool to agree with it.

I was back to my Dorm, where I preferred counting the hours for a change, unitl tomorrow’s gall walk.

I wasn’t brave enough. So, I decided to take my friend along, to the gall walk to make the time to be realized.

He was generous enough to agree to come with me. That’s the thing with guys. Good or bad, they don’t disappoint you, at that moment.

Soon after the dinner, we rushed to our café spot. That is a place, where we will have a good chitchat and not be disturbed by other gallwalkers.

There they were, helen and Jeni, walking towards us with a big smile on both the faces. I understood, she makes sure, everyone around her had that wide signature smile, when she’s around.

Nonetheless, I joined the club, with my mouth wide open with a smile, as they got closer to them.

Well, it was definitely a courtesy of greeting them, before getting that in words.

But, I can’t deny that I reciprocated the wide smile from jeni, though.

Hi Aarav! This is Jeni.” Said Helen.

OH Hi jeni, I am Aarav,” I said to her with a smile trying to make it wider than hers, to the sub conscience that she would like a wide smile.

Okay, that took few moments for me to realize that my friend had accompanied me here today.

Helen and jeni, Met Nikil, my friend,” I said to them.

While helen choose to spend the time with nikil.

I had the time to speak to Jeni for a couple of minutes.

The formal introductions and the dumbest conversations I ever had, in my life.

But trust me we were all smiles all along the conversation, Which made sense only to the awe that was inside of me.

This was a regularity for few weeks, until nikil had to opt out of the gallwalk idea for some reason.

And, a week later, Helen decided to leave the school, as she was not able to survive in the asharam, anymore. Lucky her, pity me.

Fuck!

I missed her and the gall walk, to be precise.

I never realized that was going to be the end of gall walks with jeni.

Later, it was just me and nikil, walking every night.

And for the next couple of months, we shared only few eye contacts, as it was a sin to speak to a woman, in that asharam.

I reached home for winter break and it been quite a long time, since I checked my social network.

I decided to log in to my orkut, which is so dead right now.

I had some scraps and the most recent was “Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii” and “HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOO U THRRRRRRRRRRRRR??????”

LOL, what do you expect! It was from the profile “Jeniffer Andrews”

And you won’t believe , what happened next.

I didn’t reply to that, cuz for some reason I hated orkut and scrap books.

And, then I logged onto facebook.

A couple of interesting updates with a friend request from “JENIFFER ANDREWS”

I was like, cool, I will accept it.

And, minutes later, There was a message ;” Hiiiiii”

But I was about to log out.

Definitely not when jeni has texted me.

So, I managed to have few exchanges before telling a bye from throwing my mobile number desperately to keep in touch with the bundle of joy.

I turned off the computer and took the mobile in hand to leave.

Minutes later, “ New text message”

“HI” It said.

It was anonymous and I called back.

Someone attended the call, but never spoke a word. I hung up seconds later.

And, there was another text,

“It z jeniii”

Haha, now that brought smile.

And, I replied with a “Hi” without knowing that I would have to spend every minute of the rest of my holiday, responding to the texts from the smiley bug.

I had the adrenaline spree. Well, I don’t know how to call, “A feeling of happiness and positivity throughout every breath of your day, knowing that someone out there is holding their mobile all day long, to know about you and take part in your day, with so much energy”

I had a bit of misunderstanding with her in the first week of these holidays for some godforsaken reason that I wished not to text her anymore. There was a complete break of texts for 24 hours and then came a notification “New message from jeni”

I opened the message like a Kid opening a favorite box of chocolates on a hungry hour.

And, I was floored. It been just a week since we started talking and just a day without texting each other, But she missed me so much and had the guts to admit it to me addressing me as sweet,nice,awesome friend. I was definitely flying right now.

Trust me! That’s the best feeling in the worlddd and the best part, we had around 3500 conversations over the text message and not even a single call, over the phone. And, that’s when I realized the power of words over anything else to create an impact on human mind.

As days passed by, it was the end of the holidays in couple of days.

I felt so bad and heavy, when I realized that I will not be able to text her anymore, atleast for the next 30 days and also excited to see her after a long holiday. And in fact, this time, I knew her better.

We were texting until we reached school. She was crazy enough to make her parents wait for an hour to have the phone in the dorm and have a chat with me. Well, that gave us an adventurous feeling. It is a big deal in this asharam, anyway.

As, I reached school by the evening, I had to tell her a Big Byeeee. And, since then, I have been waiting for the next morning to see that Bundle of joy that kept me sinked with joy for the past months.

I went early to the class, as I was not able to wait for the moment to come. I decided to do a fast forward. I reached the classroom, before everyone and slowly people started pouring in. And, as usual the last one to reach the class with that naughty laugh with her friends was her.

I was like, Mehh!

Okay, and I was waiting for the break. I don’t know, why was I waiting for it and what was I expecting from it. I just had to wait.

As the bell rang, denoting the end of morning session. I was all excited for no reason.

I turned towards her and wow, definitely the best time of the day. To look at her smile and giggling with her mates.

She never turned towards me. And I was asking myself, “was it really her, texting me all these days”?

Okay, and days passed on and she never looked at me , at all. Atleast when I was looking at her.

And, days flew away so quick and it was surely not a good sign. It was exams from tomorrow.

It was French exam and it was cakewalk for me. And jeniffer? LOL! It’s an ice cakewalk for her, when you realize that you have no idea what’s on your question paper. And, speaking about cakewalk, How can i forget to mention about Jeni’s talent in sports. She was the Captain of the Team Red(Agni) and an true inspiration to all the girls out there. Special skills which i happened to witness was hockey and long jump.

We both were the first ones to get out of the exam hall and not intentional. But, we happened to see each other face to face and she asked me “ Exam epdi paneenga”?

I replied. “ Nalla pannenga” as I moved out of her way. Wow, that was something unexpected and heavy. Not sure, if I would e able to handle it well, so I had to move away, the sooner.

Right after screwing up the exams was the best part all have been waiting for -

It was the time for our monthly outing and I was on my way back home with my parents and I had insisted them to bring my mobile to school. Cuz, I could not wait to go over the fond memories of the last break and start a new one again. I switched it on and the next second “Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiii” — a new message from Jeni.

Oh god! That was too quick. She had insisted her parents to bring her mobile to school , as well and decided to put a text to me, as soon as she got her mobile.

We discussed everything that happened and why she did not speak to me in school and that she was insecure about telling her friends from 4th grade about her new best friend and about how weird it is for a girl to have a conversation with a guy in that asharam.

She was cute with the way she explained it!

The two day break seemed so long with the fact that we became so close to each other like we have known each other for years. We were texting and speaking , all day all night and we never got bored of each other at any point and we never ran out of topics to giggle about.

When we ran out of topics or start to feel sleepy, that’s when we used to sing for eachother “Maazhai magnum neram”. Our voices were not that good. But, that’s when I started to feel that love and passion fades the need for talent.

The best nights.

Infact, my high school days belonged with the cutest girl in this whole world.

I felt heaven all the time.

And, every month’s break the same routine of starting from the Hiiiiii from school till the Saddest bye, when we reach the school.

Things were so perfect that I never wished for anything better. Human wants are unlimited. Until, when you have someone in your life to give you as much as you want. I mean “As much as meaning and happiness in life, you wish for”

The good times cannot be measured. It just flies and sweeps you off, to make the count impossible.

On October 7, 2011 — It was her birthday. The regular ritual in ashram is you get to wear your birthday dress and start giving chocolates to your class mates. The best moment for me and her was that usually people start distributing from their place and especially when it is a girl’s birthday. It is very sure that they give it to the girls before reaching for the boys. Here, I had asked her earlier through phone, during the holidays that I need the first chocolate. Something that I knew, would never happen.

The professor gave a nod to distribute the chocolates and all her friends were readily up for the munching. She opened the box of chocolates.

Stood up for her place on the right corner of the room. She started walking directly towards me and I was feeling * *. She came and stood in front of me. And wow! The best feeling for a high school yeah? I just put my hand deep into the box to grab a bunch for a compensation for a month as I wished her a very happy birthday with all of my heart tumbling its beat. Well, it was kind of a revenge, where she flicked nearly the whole box on my birthday.

Life was that fucking amazing. Until everything shattered. The thing about the connect/relationship between a boy and a girl is that the respect once lost is lost, the trust once broken is broken. The magic once gone is gone. But, nothing that had happened was fake. It was so true, real and pure that we are not able to let that go off that.

Our story of one such.

She came. She lived and she is gone. It took some time for me to realize that it was so natural just like our death. Now, I cherish, accept and respect it.

Infact, life would have been a bore without her. She gave me memories and now she has given me some freedom , some space to think for myself and some meaning. That is all I deserve.

Thank you J.