I’d be lying if I said I’ve never been ashamed of my body while doing something I love so dearly: running. My body has changed an incredible amount from when I decided I actually enjoyed running, and competitively, to now- as a washed up college athlete that runs for pleasure and races for beer. I started as an overweight teenager that desperately wanted to find a place to belong and quite honestly a place to escape from an unstable home life. The cult of cross country running became my community even while battling inner demons. I managed to run, or…


From a woman no longer silenced by rape culture.

I have spent too many sunless days trying to think of the right words to say. The right words to describe to someone what it is like to no longer feel like home in your own body because you only exist as your trauma. The right words to explain how everyone’s hands feel like his, even when they are just trying to love you. …


To my Camp Thorpe family: thank you. Ten reasons doesn’t even begin to explain the impact this beautiful place has on your life.

  1. I now know compassion and patience in a way I never thought was possible. They deserved every ounce of my energy.

2. They showed me a world in which I am never afraid to be exactly who I am. No judgment, no hate, no fear to be yourself. The reason I never wanted to leave camp and the reason I think about going back every single day.

3. I spent an entire summer laughing until I couldn’t…


The reality of mental illness is that there are periods of recovery and periods of relapse. It is not all sunshine and stability after recovering. It is a never ending fight to stay recovered and to keep your head above water but it is worth everyday that you are finally living (actually living) in peace.

Recovery is without a doubt the hardest thing I have been through in my young adult life and I still look back and question how I made it to where I am now. I share my path to healing often, not because it helps me…


I am not an easy person to love but I promise you I am worth it.

I will never apologize for who I am. I have hit rock bottom and came back a better woman but that doesn’t mean it didn’t cost me parts of myself. I have sharp edges and missing pieces but I am human and you cannot love the good parts of me without loving the imperfect ones first.

There are days when I cannot find the sun even when it is right outside my window. This is not anyone’s fault but it is reality. Even with…


I’m not ashamed to say I have a deep connection with my running shoes.

Running- both competetive and casual- has been a significant part of my life for 6 years. It has never been easy (not even close) but it has always been worth it. There is such freedom in running. It is an escape from the stressors of life, a break from emotional pain and a source of peace. I fell in love with running from the very beginning and I will love it for the rest of my life.

When I say I have this “deep connection” with…


Eating disorders make the holiday season almost unbearable. Here is my list of thanks for finally being able to enjoy this time.

Recovery is the regaining of something lost. A light at the end of the tunnel after years of trying to rebuild yourself into someone you remember. It is hope that a body so abused and hated can finally be loved again. It is a word that rests heavily on my heart.

With the holiday season approaching I wanted to share why I’m thankful to be fully recovered from an eating disorder. Eating disorders are illnesses of silence. Many…

Amy Blair

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