Observations on happiness

Happiness depends upon ourselves. (Aristotele)


“A” is laying on his bed face up, looking at the bare white ceiling above him. “B” comes in the room without knocking.

-Hey, it’s all right?
-Yes, all good
-You don’t look all right. Are you tired?
-I’m ok

“B” sits next to him.

-What’s up?
-Nothing is up
-You have been like this for the last few weeks, closed in your room all day long. Something is up.
-I just don’t feel like going out, that’s all
-It’s summer, this room is a furnace. It’s sunny outside and all you do is either staying in front that computer or laying on your bed staring at the wall. Don’t tell me that is normal.

“A” gives an ironic laughs.

-Normal. What is normal?
-Going out every so often. Having a social life. That is normal. Don’t you think?
-I guess I don’t care for what is normal than

“A” turns on his side away from “B”

-I am worried about you. I think you are sick
-Don’t you worry. I am not sick.
- Yes you are
-What do you want me to do? Just play this stupid fucking game?
-What is this stupid fucking game?
-Oh god..
-Explain it to me.

Silence.

-What is that you want from me? I don’t bother anyone. I don’t take drug . I don’t drink, I don’t go out so I don’t waste money for the family. I keeping by myself trying to cause the least trouble I can.
-I want you to be happy
-I don’t care about being happy. Why do people care so much about being happy! Everyone wants to be so damn happy! And younger! And successful! Pretty egoistic if you ask me.
-How is that egoistic? I’t just what we are here for. Live this life and seek a bit of happiness..
-I don’t see it that way
-You don’t. So you just want to be miserable.
-I don’t want to be miserable. It’s just that happiness is not a priority for me.
-So what are you priorities?! Cause I don’t see you working on much of anything..
-I do work. And I bring money home.
-I am not talking about money. I talk about pursuing something for you. Having a project, making a family… don’t you care about those things?
-What I care about can’t be done here or anywhere
-And what is that than?
-It doesn't matter
-I think you are just scared of doing it
-I am not scared. Is not like I haven’t thought about this. I have and a lot.
-So tell me. What is that you want to do?
-Nothing. That is what I want to do. Or at the least do as little as I need to in order to survive without being part of this
-Part of this. Ok, so if you don’t like the way things are why don’t you work on trying and change them?

Silence.

-Why would I? So I could feel more successful if I get it done? So that I could feel more young by being active? So I could finally be more happy? You see, there are things we can never escape.. and than there is one that we try our hardest to avoid, like truth. And I tell you what is the truth… we are alone and we are mortal and nothing we will ever do or say will change that. And instead of embracing it we have built a whole world to help us forget it. So be it. But I am not going to be part of it.
-Could the problem be that maybe you are thinking too much?
- Ah! ah!… you know what, it could be.

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