I want to be normal
1 min readNov 20, 2015
I don’t want to feel this ache anymore
I don’t want to dread life
Don’t want to be traumatized
Don’t want to miss him
I want to sleep the whole night
I want to feel safe
I don’t want to fear for my safety
or for that of my family
I want to picture a future
With all my family members in the frame
I don’t want to identify with anyone who’s lost a loved one
I don’t want to constantly see my mother crying in agony
I don’t want the look of devastation on my father’s face
or hear it in his words
I want to picture a less bleak future
A less helpless life
I don’t want to be another person
That’s lost her brother