There is a God.
I can finally say that again without any inkling of doubt in my mind. There is a God.
Last Sunday, my family and I went to church. The praise and worship already started when we got there. The people sang with all their hearts and didn’t pay mind to their surroundings. Some were even starting to cry and shout praises to the Lord.
A few minutes after we arrived, someone started to speak in tongues. The praise and worship team stopped playing their instruments, the song leader stopped singing, and the tambourine dancers also stopped. It was as if we were all frozen in wonder.
The church was at a standstill. All you could hear were sobbing and praises.
The message was first in Aramaic/ Hebrew. I can’t really recall what the language was. But i felt it. I felt each and every word in my heart. It was strange. How can something I can’t understand bring forth this much emotion inside me? I could not comprehend what was happening but all I know is there is a God.
I started crying while I was listening to what the man was saying. I tried to stop my body from trembling but the more i tried to stop it, the more i trembled. So I decided to feel all of it. The more I listened, the more I felt this presence in my entire being.
I can’t recall the exact words, but the gist of it was
I have not forsaken you my children, I am here with you. You are not alone, you are not alone. If you feel lost and alone, then you have taken my love for granted. I love you, my children. Do not stray away from me.
It was in that moment that all my doubts vanished. There was nothing I could do but cry and ask for forgiveness. I’ve become a man of the world and have forgotten what it was like to nurture my spirit. I’ve been doubting my faith, religion and God for so long that I no longer thanked God for all the little things.
During the service, I just kept repeating to myself, “There is a God.”
I was awestruck, and frozen with wonder. I was amazed at how timely His message was. I was struggling with everything in my life and I’ve never felt more lost and alone. It was the encouragement that I never knew I needed.
There is a God. There is a God. There is a God.
(This was written at around June 2018)