…ic concept of “development” might feel like splitting hairs, but there’s one important distinction: “Developmental meditation” is a constant part of one’s life, while “self-improvement meditation” is a ten-minute block in the calendar. It’s a question not only of time commitment but also of a more existential commitment: the decision to work toward stepping outside yourself at all times. “If temporary dissolution of self were all that was needed,” Epstein writes, “problems would not be so tenacious. Even watching television would be therapeutic.”
A meaning to one’s life should embrace a struggle for it is necessary to move through time believing your suffering holds a great purpose. Thus it is not a question of a meaning to life itself, but instead a meaning to the suffering endured through life.