This is going to be a long response, because it really hit home with me. I have been a working in the war machine for over a decade. It has been a major incongruence in my life and a source of much distress. Our primary job is to kill other humans, which has never sat right with me. I am someone who wants to help others, make the world better, even if it is just a fraction of improvement in my little neck of the woods. That feels congruent, it feels like what my “purpose” is at this time. It feels like peace.
Your post also reminded me of a section in “The New Earth,” by Ekhart Tolle. He says, “Whatever you fight, you strengthen, and what you resist, persists. These days you frequently hear the expression the war against this or that, and whenever I hear it, I know that it is condemned to failure. There is the war against drugs, the war against crime, the war against terrorism, the war against cancer, the war against poverty, and so on. For example, despite the war against crime and drugs, there has been a dramatic increase in crime and drug-related offenses in the past twenty-five years. The prison population of the United States has gone up from just under 300,000 in 1980 to a staggering 2.1 million in 2004. The war against disease has given us, 4 amongst other things, antibiotics. At first, they were spectacularly successful, seemingly enabling us to win the war against infectious diseases. Now many experts agree that the widespread and indiscriminate use of antibiotics has created a time bomb and that antibiotic-resistant strains of bacteria, so-called super bugs, will in all likelihood bring about a reemergence of those diseases and possibly epidemics…War is a mindset, and all action that comes out of such a mind-set will either strengthen the enemy, the perceived evil, or, if the war is won, will create a new enemy, a new evil equal to and often worse than the one that was defeated.”
Here is a link to the full section from the book if you want to read it: http://faculty2.ric.edu/rfeldstein/434fall10/12.anewearthwarismindset&egoneedtofeelsuperior.pdf