“I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited .”
― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
This quote written 53 years ago or more by my idol Sylvia Plath very much summarize my life so far, unfortunately.
ِAbove what sylvia was referring to, we face huge problem !
Being young in this age is very hard, confusing and very overwhelming,
i mean we have all these choices, all these routes that freezes us in our spot without moving an inch.
I know it all, I don’t have to go through the whole thing to discover it up anymore …… it is out there in the open.
Internet, Movies , Novels and social media show everyone a part of everyone's experiences. everything became old news!
I mean for instance I can expect how my friend relationship is going only after a couple of days and based of other people stories, I can predict even my relation with my friends who I’ll lose soon? who is gonna stick to me in the present? I can tell who will head to build career and who won’t.
No more surprises! I mean even books and movies we fetch the internet for reviews and ratings before we watch or read them!
it is so annoying ,isn’t it ? and yet life is so complicated!
I wasn’t born for this era, i want live in the 1950s where my choices were more limited yet richer and more exclusive!
Everyday, i discover more and more writers to read to, movies to watch, places to go and i have to chose and i hate that for several reasons between money problems to priority arrangements …etc.
life has became very lame, i’m starting to abstain! and i’m too young for this.
I want to some one to get me a book i know nothing about it or its author, to watch a movie without reading all these reviews and comparing the rating this takes all the fun out of it, i want go places and ask people for directions instead of using maps on my cell phone, i want Salvation!