Thanks for writing this. It spoke to me, especially this sentence. And to those who would say your arrangement with your friends is wrong, I say: fine, have it your way, and be clear about it. Be someone who says, ‘I need firm commitment 100% of the time or you’re out.’ Knowledge is power and I need to know who not to spend my very limited energy on.
I’m happy to say I do have a few friends that get me. I have found that the people most worthy of my trust when it comes to sharing my mental illness often have their own form of depression or anxiety and understand. If I am not allowed to be myself- flaking and all- it isn’t really friendship, is it?