Survived another marathon of therapy
Last week we had another marathon of therapy where I talked about in a previous blog. A marathon take place on the last thursday and friday of every month. I had to participate this marathon in its normal form, not as a leader, because I am still devalued.
We had to wake up at 5 o’clock in the morning and we had to clean up both houses who were full of dirth and mess. I show you a photo of the previous month when I was leader:

While cleaning up, they are throwing cold water on us. After we are having group therapy until 1 o’clock in the night. At 6 o’clock we wake up again and another day of therapy starts until 3 or 4 o’clock in the night. The whole day we are “cleaned” with cold water and we can’t sit unless a therapy take place or when we are eating. We can’t speak to other people and we don’t have privileges like extra food.
For me it’s everytime a survival because one of my problems is my dependence to external things to be happy, like food and my cellphone. Real happiness is inside of you and we can’t depend to anything than ourself to be happy.
It’s like an examen after a month to see which progress you have made and which capacities you still have to strengthen. It’s a way to increase your character.
I have fully recovered from my relapse and this marathon was proof of that. I calmly survived without irritations. For that matter it was my best marathon so far and it’s good to see the evolution I have made.
I am reading a book about how our mind works and how we can change our way of being. To change we have to be greater than our environment, our body and time. This quote is helping me a lot. Even though it’s hard to be here, I need to keep in mind what I want to succeed and I need to finish this process to be glorious in the future.
I am analyzing myself a lot and working on the things that are missing. That’s the moment when you realize that drugs aren’t the problem, it’s more a consequence. Changing things in your personality is much more difficult than leaving drugs.
19 november I will remain the process as leader and after that I can leave again in the weekend. I have a meeting with someone who works in a foundation that takes care of children who are affected by poverty, domestic violence, negelected, sexual harrasment and addiction to see if I can do something for them as a volunteer after my process. My idea was to do something about addiction but we will see which possibilities there are.
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