PinnedWhere Are the Male Sex Workers for Women?Hi, my name is Torch and I’m an alcoholic. First time I’ve written that here. I’ve suspected for a couple of decades and while I stopped…Jun 19, 2023A response icon25Jun 19, 2023A response icon25
My Vipassana Meditation Retreat (where I snuck in a forbidden journal)I came home from my second 10 day silent meditation ‘retreat’ two weeks ago today. My first was 8 years ago when I was a very different…Mar 21A response icon3Mar 21A response icon3
Sex & Sobriety — Or Lack Thereof15 months sober today — 458 days. It’s not a lot but it’s a lot for me. I’ve gone years without drinking before — when I lived in…Sep 2, 2024A response icon7Sep 2, 2024A response icon7
This Is My BodyBack in the day, I was a headlining stripper. A world champion. I spent 15 years in the business. But when I met the man I married (and…Apr 26, 2024A response icon2Apr 26, 2024A response icon2
The Hooker MonologuesWhen I started stripping back in 1986 at the ripe old age of 18, there was a pretty clear line drawn in the sand of sex work. We were table…Mar 26, 2024A response icon5Mar 26, 2024A response icon5
An Abused Woman Plans the EscapeThis is a private journal entry from 7 years ago. My daughter and I were still living with my husband but actively planning on leaving him…Mar 7, 2024A response icon4Mar 7, 2024A response icon4
Dead Bedrooms — the Woman’s SideI was with my ex-husband for almost 15 years and after doing the math, we had had sex less than 100 times. I always considered my…Feb 9, 2024A response icon5Feb 9, 2024A response icon5
Women Don’t Need to Dissolve Their Ego to be SpiritualIt never made sense to me that there were no female messiah or buddha figures. The fact that we worshipped a father and son and a male holy…Jan 13, 2024A response icon4Jan 13, 2024A response icon4
The Next Step is a DoozyMake a searching and fearless moral inventory of yourself. That’s step four. 55 years is a helluva long inventory. I’ve been here for…Nov 15, 2023A response icon4Nov 15, 2023A response icon4
It’s In Your Body — Cry It the Fuck OutSo about a month ago, one of the fellas in the AA room walked over to me with a new box of kleenex which literally had my name written on…Oct 24, 2023A response icon5Oct 24, 2023A response icon5