It just seams so farfetched that you just dropped me so instantly. Thought I was
sharp but I end up cutting myself up. With a sudden change of heart to one other, you
were bull shitting me since the start. Guess you’re not the person I sought you out to be I
use to think you were beautiful within skin deep.
Fuck it, I guess I can’t just be friend I tired for you but I guess you couldn’t hold on your
end of your request. You cared my ass, my bff my ass, if so you would have at least
said something about my poem I text you I’m done contemplating I am not going to
chase no more. Infatuated by believing that I was going to have a gf.. The only reason
why I didn’t engage was to respect your wishes since you said you need a break from
relationships… Since you been on and off consistently like a light switch. How you going
to lie to yourself you said deep down you liked me a lot that you really really liked me.
Then you said that about that other nigga out of the blue before I left to the bay. Also why
you going to tell me about how you talked to your friend and cuzin from Fresno about me
and telling me just as long as I make you happy and wanting me to meet them and your
I didn’t mean to be discreet about my feelings before. I honestly wanted to get
serious but I was to scared to say I just didn’t want to be so hasty I shouldn’t have let
you answer first.. When you kept asking me what we were after bed….. You just said
we were just friends with benefits pshh… The first time I felt your pain when you said
I didn’t enjoy what we did that I was an android and it got you sad that made me sad..
Really I did remember I’m new at this mushy ass play doe crap you really had feelings..
The second time really was different, look like you were trying to make love to me..
Also before all that you said I felt like I was your man but I’m not…Then I called you
baby and you called me boo. As you were laying on me I felt your heart race so fast and
pound like a drum every time you asked those questions and bold statement… And saw
the disappointment in your eyes when you gave your answer looking down trying to keep
your composure that sound so fake. You weren’t being honest with me..
Then all the sudden it’s changed… If you liked me so much you would have
gave me another chance or not even been talking to the other guy.. And if I carried all the
qualities of a man you always wanted you would of keep at it. Guess being kind hearted,
sweet, thrilling, thoughtful and being open wasn’t enough. You said you loved almost
everything about me how family oriented, very loving, the things I do, my possessions
and wear and the masculine domineer I carry out when it need to be done. How did you
even fine the time get time with him… When we weren’t together you were basically
on the phone with me for hour’s everyday or texting me up until after we saw Harold
and Kumar. Before I left to the bay you said that you met him a week before me… Then
when I talked to you on the phone after thanksgiving then I asked again you said it was
a week after me?? Then how are you going to forget the weekend or day he asked you
out… Shouldn’t that be important?? I remember the first day I asked for your number and
our first date…. I answered it for you with my curiosity just spitting and trying to squeeze
things out on accident… Dude you’re just making shit up are you….. If so your just as
crooked as the other girls in the past.. I can just hear and feel see in your eyes as if its all
Word of advice if this guy even does exists you should go out clean and tell him
EVERYTHING about me….. Cuz if he just got you when I left you all vulnerable then
that’s not cool.. Just word of advice about a mans prospective just being honest… We
want to no everything that’s all… See if he can handle if he can then his meant to be
since ya’ll have a deep connection.… It’s just not right if you don’t, well you can do what
There’s a bad boy inside of me the guy your parents warn you about that can
bring out your wildest dreams. I wanted to make it right by re-kicking it off and running
it back being as your MVP. I was going to be your Mario who would chase the different
galaxy just to save princess from all your troubles and just to be in your arms… Too late
for that now I know I deserve better… Your just playing mind games its to harsh I don’t
deserve to put aside like this.. If I wasn’t your choice too bad and all I did for you wasn’t
enough to leave a good impact fine what evsss guess you can careless about the simple
things in life that means a lot… I would of gave it all my all you would of saw the light
and side that I was waiting to show you that no girl has ever seen before… I won’t lie,
just to let you notice I never did talk to any other girls beside you… I shut them ALL
down, as I look at the bigger picture at the moment when I threw a fit I wasn’t ready to
be your man before leaving to the bay… But as I came back I was fit and ready oh well I
believe its too late for that a new painting came to frame up to me.
Such a fiasco trying to patch things up… Just so much shit but I learned how to
cope with it. But from the bottom of my heart I’d like to still thank you for making me
rediscover myself… I am in the greatest state of mind I have ever been in my life. I’m
higher then I ever been and its on life itself.. Well I lied to myself and you also since I
can’t have you I just have to walk away for good this isn’t no farewell like the last time
it’s a good bye I can’t just be friends…If this is some kind of test its just wrong in so
many levels.. But I do wish the best for you… I will never forget you, you really made a
great impact in my life no lie I became a better person. I learned so much.. Once again
“May your neighbors respect you, your troubles neglected you, the angels protect
you and heaven accept you” — Drake
Nita 8:57pm — Just how did you leave me vulnerable? Did you dump me, to leave
me vulnerable before I got a boyfriend? Andry.. You’re being way too serious about this..
Nita 9:01pm — And why do I have to tell him about you? It’s not like you and I
are together… I really don’t understand why your being like this? I had a good time with
you, and now we can be nice to each other and go our separate ways if you can’t let go of
Nita 9:06pm — Wow just cuz I didn’t text you back about your poem I’m not
holding my end of the friendship? Gotta say this is dumb… really juvenile…I thought
you were better than this and can take things like a man. But saying allllllll this shit to me
Me 9:17pm — If you want to talk to me about it ur more then welcome to… If
having feelings is crazy I guess I am… just feels like my emotions were tampered with
and I think that’s selfish juvenile heartless and emotionless… I thought u were better than
that…. And the letter was the only way that I could keep my composure to not crack in
Me 9:25pm — Its not a friendship if the other one can careless about the other or
if u ca’nt see me eye to eye on this… I’m just a sensitive person under the leather skin I
hold… And this is the way I’m letting go
Nita 9:31pm — I told you from the start. I didn’t want anything. No relationship.
your getting way out of proportion..
Me 9:43pm — Well maybe soo… Then why are u in one? How am I suppose to
handel it quite contradicting yourself… Did u just want me to roll over as u hop over to
Me 9:45pm — The way ur reacting makes me feel like u are the girl from 500 days
Nita 9:46pm — No, sorry I hurt you, But I really had feelings for you , so it makes
me feel really bad when you call me a liar and all the things you said about me in the
letter, but my feelings for him were just stronger..
Me 9:51pm — it doesntt make u feel bad what I said I think u feel bad because of
your consciences I now know u don’t care
Nita 9:53pm — Yes it makes me feel bad… terrible…
Me 9:57pm — I’m glade it didn’t work out… Cuz u would have been keeping
secrets from me like you are from him… Thanks for saving me the time and headache
Nita 10:21pm — I’m not keeping secrets from him. Omg he doesn’t know you and
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