Congratulations on getting sober and thank you for writing this. I feel part of your pain, as someone who never got into drinking and had to go through college (where people would mock me for ordering juice at their fancy pub) and life, I feel your moments of tiredness when every corner keeps yelling at you that you should drink, you should get drunk, you should say yes to everything (especially when you are drunk) and so forth. Once I had to escape a St. Patty's "celebration" because I felt trapped, everywhere I looked there were hundreds of empty bottles and glasses and people making no sense, and as I was wondering why so many of us need to be very drunk to have any fun, I was hit by an immense sadness — I just couldn't be there anymore.
Knowing I am not the one makes it easy to cope. Thank you!