I’ll write differently now
A couple of months ago, I stumbled across a really interesting idea. I think I saw it in my Facebook news feed one day.
It’s called http://www.themostdangerouswritingapp.com/
You can use the site to write anything you feel like writing. The only catch is your words will be destroyed, deleted, and erased from existence if you fail to write continuously for the prescribed period (which, thankfully you can define). I used it and fell in love. The words I write under pressure seem to come out of nowhere and I like it. I didn’t realize I thought about something the way I did, that I harbored a particular doubt, that I understood a situation in a particular way. I’ve only used the site a few times, but I plan to continue. I recommend it to everyone I know that is interested in writing. Or rather, that is interested in writing and uncovering the raw and real thoughts that are within them. It’s unnerving, scary, and amazing all at once.
The passage below is from a few days ago. I’ll need to reread it before I understand it. I think most of my writing will turn out this way but that’s okay.
I learned two things today. The first one is I am not the only person with an ulterior motive for doing anything. Apparently, J.P. Morgan agrees with me. Roughly speaking, he said that every man has two reasons for doing anything: a good reason and the real reason. Immediately I asked myself why I am trying to found Glance with Derek. The reason I state, that is the reason I tell everyone, is that I want to change the way people buy things and learn about new products. The real reason is I think I can succeed in becoming a billionaire. Why would I want to do this? To paraphrase Jordan Belfort, because I think that I can spend that sort of money better than most people. The other thing that I learned today was that I should forgive myself for needing to develop my ability to articulate what it is I want out of life. Telling someone that I want to be a billionaire will likely only illicit a laugh or a feeling of sadness or pity. That is not something I want. I need to be able to forgive myself for not only not being able to adequately explain to someone why I am so ambitious, but also that I am so ambitious in the first place. After all, not many people in my life aim quite so high. Is it because they don’t think that doing so would likely result in success? Is it because society has taught them that such ambition in useless or that such a low likelihood of success is not worth pursuing? Is it because they lack the personal confidence to attempt such an activity, if it can be referred to like that? I’m not entirely sure but the fact that my potential explanation of my ambition is difficult tells me something about the world I live in.
Apparently I’m an asshole.
Do I really think I can spend money better than other people and that I therefore deserve to own a bank account with 10 digits? Well, maybe. I certainly know how to spend money better than other people when it comes to spending money on things I care about. Are the things I care about more important than the things other people care about? Absolutely not. So am I really an asshole? I hope not. The only other thing I’ll say about the billion dollars is that is certainly isn’t what it used to be. I’m sure Doctor Evil could explain this better: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EJR1H5tf5wE
And for the record, I do certainly think Glance will work because it helps people. That’s not just a good reason, but the best.
I guess what I’m really trying to say here is that writing with a deadline and a legitimate risk of losing everything (as in the writing) makes you think about things differently.
You should definitely try it. Again, its called The Most Dangerous Writing App. Check it out.