The Lawn Incident
Let me preface this by saying that my yard was in disarray. My ‘grass’ is really just a bunch of weeds that just happen to be (mostly) green, they were at the height of just below the knee.
My son and I were gingerly walking down the sidewalk (just minding our own business), when we came to our neighbors house two doors down. Upon walking past, they (having a pristine yard) were working on their yard, with all their fancy tools and equipment (just typical things needed to maintain a yard). Saying hello nicely, we started some casual chit-chat. After a bit, the husband, kindly offered to bring his lawn-mower to mow my yard.
I thought to myself, “this is great, so kind of him” and told him the same. Upon walking away and thinking about it, I had a weird sickly feeling in my gut. I believe this feeling would be called ‘emasculating’.
Not really having this feeling before, I immediately went in and told my wife the only logical thing. “We have to get a lawn mower right now!”
As our kind neighbor came over and started mowing our lawn, I held my 3 year old son in dismay (my fatherly image forever scared). I couldn’t tell our nice neighbor to stop, but I couldn’t not be there when he did it (that would be rude, right?). I offered to just use his lawn mower, and I would operate, but he insisted. So there I stood… watching… this act of “kindness”…
Maybe this shouldn’t be as big of deal to me as it is. What is wrong with me? I mean, he is just being kind and offering a friendly service. But — who the heck does this guy think he is? Mowing my lawn… Does he know he is taking something from me (or at least it feels like he is)? I doubt it.
I now have my own lawn mower (thank God). Purchased the day after this incident. Purchased from an 87 year old woman — who still mows her lawn and has been doing so for the last 20 years (adding to my emasculation). With my newly acquired grass(weed, in my case)-killer, I used it to mow with such pride. It felt good. It felt right. I am not sure that I will ever recover from what was taken from me in the incident, but mowing my own lawn will have to do for the time being.
End exaggeration and manly vulnerability.
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