I Know I Should Ignore Trolls, But I Decided to Respond Because Responding Made Me Happy

Although I usually delete and block trolls on YouTube, sometimes I can’t keep up with the comments because I am too busy. During a layover on my flight home from a great vacation, I decided to respond before deleting these comments. I hope that my responses might make others who are putting themselves out there in the public sphere feel better.

GMan IV writes,

“why would you go to any church anyways? You been on the other side, what could you gain from any church? Be it Christian, Mulsum, New Age or whatever. Plus why are you so “nice” not to offend anyone? Why dont you blast these religions and tell poeple No there is no Jesus that you must believe on or else you will Burn forever in Hell or No there is no Allah where a woman must dress from head to toe even in the 120 degree desert and there are no 30 virgins waiting to greet you when you die. What good of a TEACHER are you to just sugar coat everything and not tell people the TRUTH but allow them to continue on in their silly worldy view of religion and God? I thought you came back to TEACH humanity???”

My Response

Dear GMan IV,

The Dali Lama says kindness is his religion. Amma says love is her religion. I say do whatever it takes to give yourself and this world more loving kindness. If church helps you become a kinder, more compassionate person — go there. If dancing in the forest and making organic popsicles makes you a kinder person — do that. If my YouTube videos make you angry and make you want to blast me, find something that gives you peace brother.

Find something that makes you want to spread kindness…it matters more than you realize. You get to feel the perspectives of others in your life review, so you should spend your time trying to uplift others. Create moments filled with love for yourself and others.

As a side note, I do believe in Jesus, and heard the words, “Be like a little child” coming from the light of God. My problem with Christianity is the fear and judgment many churches emphasize. Love is all that matters and all that we take with us.

Additionally, if it is teaching that you so deeply desire, as luck would have it I happen to be an English professor. Please note that Muslim is not spelled “Mulsum,” and people is not spelled “poeple.” “Wordly” is an unusual spelling, and I’m not sure if you meant loquacious, verbose, circumlocutory, or prolix. Perhaps, you simply meant to type “worldly,” but in the context of your statement you might search for a more appropriate word like “limited” or “outdated.” Remember “You been” should be “You have been” or “You’ve been.”

To better understand the variety and nuances of world religions, you might consider reading books or even taking a course in comparative religion. Be sure to review apostrophe rules, and avoid all caps. I appreciate your interest in near-death experiences. May you be blessed, and consider yourself schooled.

Sincerely,

Professor Barker

Another YouTuber writes,

Looks like she’s gained some weight since her last video a couple of months ago. She needs to work out and take care of her God-given temple.”

My Response:

Dear Troll,

First, camera angle is something that everyone should understand when snapping selfies or making a video. If the camera is eye-level, people will look much more like themselves. If the camera is positioned below them, they may end up looking like they have put on weight or have a double-chin. The camera was positioned way below the stage in that video.

Whatever though. I speak to give others comfort, not to participate in a runway show. One woman dying of cancer saw that particular video and communicated that it gave her peace about the dying process. She was a teacher like me, and she passed away recently. Offering hope to the terminally ill is one of the many reasons why I tell my story.

Secondly, I freakin’ love myself, even though I battle like the warrior that I am with thyroid disease, fibromyalgia, depression, anxiety, and arthritis. I love myself even when I have to teach eight classes and am pushing hard to revise a manuscript, leaving me little time to work out. Life is about harmony in the long run, not complete balance simultaneously. Sometimes, a person must sacrifice one portion of their life when they are working intensely in another area and that is fine.

Next time you comment on a woman’s appearance, consider the fact that she might have a terminal illness or might have suffered a miscarriage. Wouldn’t you feel bad if you made someone who is hurting feel even worse? I would like to protect that woman from your comments.

There will always be people who love me and those who talk badly about me, but I choose to feel good about myself constantly. I also know that having a bright soul can illuminate someone who is mostly skin and bones or several hundred pounds overweight. This body is something we should treat with great care, but a heart that doesn’t look at others with compassion is a heart in deep need of healing.

Troll, you need the love and light of God much more than the “perfect woman” you keep looking for and never finding in real time. If you do have a woman in your life, I am certain that you will not make her happy or make her love you more by cutting her down with your words.

Someday you will become frail, get sick, and die. You will shed your attachment to form and realize the truth of your journey.

I promise you, the truth of your journey is not to get on YouTube and troll and track people. You might actually create ripples of harm and have to examine this in your life review. I won’t take your words with me, but you will. You own them. Be careful what you say to others.

I’ll leave you with a poem by Lucille Clifton because her life force, her energy, her celebratory tone is something we all should embrace. We should all love ourselves this much. I know I do! May you be blessed, Troll!

Sincerely,

Fine Just as I Am

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