Guilt-filled Excitement

When does happiness not jinx you?

Lately, I’ve been bouncing off the walls with excitement. There are so many potential opportunities for me and just the possibilities are filling me with so much drive and motivation. The shit part is that every time I feel myself bubbling up with happiness I feel the need to tone it down. Somewhere in the back of my mind I can’t help but hesitate. Im plagued by the the thought that maybe if I’m too excited it’ll all disappear—just like that. Do I have to wait until I actually have solid results before I can look forward to my future? Why am I constantly in fear of good things disappearing.