Being Valentine

Although Valentine’s day has come and gone, I want to share this story here. Why? Because being in love is a daily activity that can only be mastered through embracing life with wide open arms. That’s how the love is allowed in!

I can remember a time in my life when I used to dread Valentine’s Day! It always made me uncomfortable because it seemed like a waiting game. Would anyone love me? Would my partner remember? How did I behave as if I didn’t care, when I did? I was really confused.

Some of the loneliest times in my relationships was on Valentine’s Day. There I sat, in solitary confinement with my expectations and that emptiness inside. This went on for many years, with different people and in different places. Until I finally stopped waiting for someone else to make me happy and feel loved. I finally accepted that the only one I had been waiting for, was actually myself.

I began to sit with that emptiness that I had felt for so long, inside of me. I didn’t really know what to do or say or how to handle it. And so I simply sat there quietly, with the emptiness, in a state of waiting and without expectation. Finally one day, everything changed.

The emptiness and I merged together to become one! The feeling of belonging that I had always looked for in another and out there, happened within my own Heart. My life was touched by grace and I took my first step into self-love. It was like water to a drowning man and at last my thirst was quenched.

That was the beginning of a delicious love affair. Now, each day is a day of being in love with myself and life. I love the unconditional nature of this state. I didn’t know it at the time, but that was the first time I was fearlessly alone and happy. The events and people that show up in my life today reflect my love back to me in ways that are such a far cry from the lonely scared person I used to be. I am so grateful for all of it and mostly that I had the foresight to at last look for love in the right place — within my own Heart.

Wishing you a day full of feelings of love and being loved. May you allow yourself to receive and be carried by the love that is everywhere, all of the time. Blessings and much much love.

Trilby Johnson
Author of Fearlessly Alone, Speaker and Body Energy Alchemist

‘Fearlessly Alone’ is the book that can support you in connecting to your true love and mastering your life ->

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