“I laugh and my heart swells against my swimsuit and I pull my shades down too, to keep my suddenly watery eyes to myself. Because it is. It is so nice on this side of the pool, where the book I’m reading is a letdown and my legs look too white and the ice has long since melted in my glass and work is hard and there’s still no good way to be a girl and I don’t know what to do with my life and I have to actually deal with all of that. I never expected to make it to this side of the pool. I can’t believe I get to be here.”
I love this paragraph and pray I get the wisdom to reach this point in my life some day. I absolutely enjoyed every word, every scenario, and I can relate in so many ways as a recovered addict, divorced, newly engaged, mother of 2, full time career working woman, 3 months postpartum and feeling fat, trying not to beat myself up every waking moment for not getting to the gym or the yoga studio. Ugh, life is hard and oh how I have drowned myself in the booze. You didn’t need to know all that about me…….. yet somehow I feel the need to let you know who I am.
You are an amazing writer and as I am new to this site, I cannot wait to read more of your stories. Thank you for sharing.