Why Can’t I Go To Sleep — On Time?
My battle with sleep has been ongoing for as long as I can remember.
When I was a kid, fighting the urge to fall asleep was about not wanting to miss out on anything. I seemed to get more energized as 7:00 PM approached, so making my 8:00 PM bedtime was almost impossible.
Once I got to middle school, I didn’t have to fight sleep, life did that for me. My parents’ health were my distractions, my father’s cancer and my mother’s litany of of illnesses, provided me with enough worry to interrupt an already irregular sleep pattern.
By the time I hit high school, my poor sleep pattern was established. Add on the nightmares about the death of both of my parents along with my getting my first after school job as a busboy — sleep took a back seat.
My poor sleep habits only continued over the years. Considering the impact sleep has on growth and healthy development, it’s a wonder I’m actually over six feet tall and fairly healthy. Though I may not have escaped totally unharmed, according to research, a contributing factor in belly fat is lack of sleep — though I’ve probably helped the belly along with sporadic exercise and too much sugar.
So, what does this all mean? Well…basically, I’m typing this as I’m about to fall asleep. Because I’m a hard-headed adult who still doesn’t know how to take himself to bed at a responsible hour. And while my excuse…err, reason for staying up has changed…no more nightmares or evening work…just television and a fast internet. The results are still the same…a sleepy me trying to plow through a day made much more difficult because I refuse to grow up and go to bed at a reasonable hour.