Ok, NOW I’m fully formed.

I watched Dan Gilbert’s Psychology of Your Future Self, and Carol Dweck’s talk about Growth Mindset, and came out completely bought into the concept of the ever-changing self, ready to learn.

In theory.

Because, in practice, I completely think that I’m finished. Or, rather, that I should be finished. And not just finished — perfect. Honed, polished, excelling. Anything less is unacceptable.

Why can’t I just accept my ‘areas for development’? 
Lamia — you’re going to over-complicate. That’s just you.

Accepting the fact that I am still be a work-in-progress is easier said than done. I know my attitude should be: “They’re only flaws for now. I’ll fix them eventually, I just haven’t yet. I can do anything & everything.”

But in my head I’m like, “WHAT?! Lies!” 
Because I can’t do anything & everything. Nobody can be good at everything. There’s always going to be that ‘area for development’.

But… what if the things I am good at are not the things that make me happy? And what if I’m not good enough at the one thing I want to be good at…What do I do then? That is my fear.

The cliche says: “If you love what you do, you’ll be good at it.”
But is that true? And if you’re not good at it, can you still love what you do?