Fear and Laziness A Dangerous Combination

Recently I have been working through a lot of issues. Too many things all piled on top of one another have resulted in a huge mountain of stress and fear. Currently I am not working and that leads to more stresses of bills not being paid and the potential of having to work yet another dead end job that provides me with nothing more than a paycheck and stress in a different form.

While I am between work I decided that I would really attempt to find a paying gig that I can do from home. I have a degree in small business/entrepreneurship and it is my hope to one day be my own boss. What better opportunity do I have than working from home? I guess that can question can be answered only when I find something that can be done from home.

The good news is that right now I am not struggling anymore than when I was working. Luckily we did something right and saved up a fair amount of money just in case. I want to invest that money and allow it to grow not slowly dwindle away.

Originally when I decided to stop working I had intentions of taking a portion of that money and begin investing into stocks. I knew very little about investing and what I do know about stocks I learned from school. The way I think and do new things is I study, read, watch videos, and ask people I trust or are experts in the field before even attempting.

Things began well and I was heading in the right direction. Life happened and I found myself without a babysitter for a week. Usually my mother in law watches the children during the day so I can work on things. She decided to go on a vacation, a right she has, and I was left being dad.

While she was on vacation my wife told me that she felt the children were wearing her mom out. I took that as her way of asking can I take care of them more and work less. Funny I never had any complaints when I went out of the house for work.

Once the vacation ended my sister in law decided that she needed her mom to be with her more often. Again I compromised because I know that she recently had her first child and that her husband was going to be out of town for a while.

With the three couple of distractions I lost my direction. I no longer had the same drive to learn about investing. I know the importance of investing and that I need to get started with it. On the other hand I need to do something else to make some kind of ends meat.

When I sat down the other day and realized how lazy I had gotten I knew something had to change. I don’t want to go back out to the work world and do something that doesn’t benefit me in anyway other than earning a paycheck. I need to find something that teaches me a skill or involves something I love doing.

Then I thought why do I have to give up on anything? I thought about this blog and writing. Blogging is a great way for me to express my ideas and thoughts. If you know who I am then you know that I am a keep to myself kind of person; introvert I believe it is called. It’s my comfort zone. Although I am an introvert I still know how to talk with people and make friends. Blogging allows me to stay in my shell and still communicate with others without meeting anyone face to face.

Instead of rushing out and trying to find a meaningless job I have to try building my at home business. I love writing. I write everyday in a journal (man’s way of saying a diary). Today is the eleventh day of October. I have decided that in attempt to bolster my resume and build my audience I will put more effort into this blog.

I am counting this blog as one of the two I will write for the month. I will write two in November and then I want to write one a week starting in December. In order for that to happen I need to commit to it. I have to treat it like a business. I have to try and grow it through social media. I need to create a category that I can write about consistently. I also need to grow the amount of readers I have.

I do not expect to earn anything more than knowledge while doing this. Who knows this might lead to something that I never dreamed of. To anyone who is stuck in a rut I say to them, things can pile up quickly. Most likely everything grew slowly and one thing at a time. If you try to handle everything all at once it won’t work. Pick one thing and change it. Keep working on slowly bringing down the pile and you will make it through any struggle.