Dear Crush, I exist
I scroll through your Facebook. I see your Instagram.
The social media is all I can do to win that grand slam.
I look at your pictures and then I look into the mirror.
It’s sad to say that it all gets clearer when I go nearer.
I look at her and the world around me fades away.
Like the song ‘Faded’, her single glance makes my day.
Did I already say you were more than a crush?
I was awestruck when I first saw you blush.
Vivaciously I fell head over heels and got adrenaline rush.
Your ‘no degree’ eye deflection towards anyone put my feelings in flush.
Actually, from the first, I was aware that you were plush.
Did I mention that I lost my self-esteem?
I wish I could talk to you as it was my dream.
Very rapidly, that beautiful dream turned into a daydream.
Your ‘I don’t give a F***’ attitude switched my fantasy to a sad theme.
Actually, it all happened for a reason before I could reach an extreme.
Did I tell you I wanted to confess your name so badly?
I could have broadcasted it on TV, Radio, and YouTube abruptly.
Very sincerely, I tried to get a good morning glance of yours daily.
Your ‘I am not looking at anyone’ omen hinted me to stop sadly.
Actually, I wish you could know how at the very first sight, I fell for you truly & madly.
Did I tell you they warned me that looks are deceiving?
I always unheard them as I felt some beautifully hidden meaning.
Very good, was never a compliment as I failed every time in pleasing.
Your ‘I can never be impressed by you’ gave me a disheartening screaming.
Actually, it all starts with the ravishing looks and ends with books, unceasing.
What would I do if someday I get a chance to talk to her? I ask myself.
What would be her first question if she asks me about anything? I ask myself.
What would be the possible outcome of that 2-liner conversation? I ask myself.
Well, I wish she could hear me rap an Eminem song.
Well, I wish she could see my name somewhere on Google.
Well, I wish she could laugh at my standup comedy
Well, I wish she could smile looking at me like I do.
But then remember, I have lost faith in ‘Wishes’ and ‘Dreams’.
Original Excerpts from my personal blog
