
Memories
I remember crying over your love back in the day.
Pleading with you to make us official.
I was tired of being single but unavailable.
Making obligatory calls and check ins whenever I went out.
Always being careful enough not to mislead anyone because I knew you’d flip out if I did that again.
When that happened, I told myself I’d take us more seriously because I didn’t want to lose you.
The way we started things off was so fucked up. I should’ve known things would’ve ended up like this.
But I wouldn’t listen to my own doubts and fears and continued with it until I just couldn’t take it anymore.
Fast forward to 2 years later when we met up again.
I could see that you wanted us back.
You did your best to try and rekindle what we had by sending me our old messages.
I told you that I didn’t want to see them because I knew you were trying to take me back to that place where I loved you with all of me.
But you took my love for granted. Remember?
Maybe you thought the mind games would make me stay. They did for a time, then I woke up.
You should’ve realized what you had back then.
After all these years, you finally realized that you fucked up.
I’m not saying I’m perfect or better than anyone else, but I’m willing to bet being with me was good.
You drove me over the edge and brought out my crazy when you did me dirty, but my kind of love is what people dream of.
All I wanted from you was your love in return. No money, protection or caretaking, just love.
But you messed up, and you can’t ever get that kind of love out of me again.
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