Dear Doctor,

I am writing to you in hoping you could read this letter. Even though I know you won’t, you told me to write anyway. So here goes…

Uyun
Uyun
Sep 4, 2018 · 1 min read

I do what you told me, taking pills two times a day, writing instead harming myself, checking up every month. Then why all of sudden it feels like it’s not working?

I have trouble sleeping in at nights. When I sleep, I have vivid nightmares and panic attacks. My anxiety intensifies, I cry in my sleep. Once I woke up at midnight not knowing what to do, I did what you told me not to, or, the pills have been preventing me to do.

Not only mentally ill, I have been having fever and constant headache. Am I stressing? Or is it part of the healing?

Doc, I am getting tired of taking pills every morning and every night, getting anxious when I take it 5-minute late, or missing a dose. When will I be done?

Dear everyone, it’s suicide prevention week in the US. I wonder what would you say to prevent me from killing myself?

Because I feel like I’m about to.

Uyun

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Uyun

I prefer writing than killing myself. Or do I?

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