Want to write regularly? Dance with your gratification monkey!

If you’re a fan of Seth Godin, then you’ve probably come across his idea of dancing with fear. I’m now starting to see my struggles with writing regularly the same way.

I’ve been trying to get my morning routine in order for a while now. Here’s the list of things that I want to do every morning:

I’ve been trying to make this work for 6 months now.

Here’s what I’m proud of:

  • I haven’t given up yet!
  • My Yoga is going pretty good — I think I’ve finally crossing that chasm from “I have to practice” to “I love to practice”
  • I’ve gotten myself to at least stare at my PMP goals almost everyday for 30min and not get worked up. Think that’s easy? Try staring at something that reminds you of your ADD, OCD and Procrastination everyday and still not getting mad at someone in the family.
  • [I was wondering whether I could cheat a little and add another one here — but since this is my first post on Medium — I think I’ll be honest. So, that’s it, just 3 things — over a span of 6 months].

Now..let’s get to the meat of the matter: Writing

Why Writing? Why not Daily Planning or Reading? Its not like I’ve mastered them yet.

It still takes me an hour to plan my day (and that’s on the days I do it).

And Reading? Well, I’m averaging about a book a month. Not nearly enough to complete my backlog before I retire.

So, why writing? I’m not sure really. I think its the kick I get out of it. So..I did a bit more thinking, and here’s what I came up with:

  • I like to laugh — as I think and come up with funny ideas as I’m writing
  • I love analysis — I can take a problem or question and keep digging at it, until that bulb goes on in my head. Or..until I feel relieved that I’ve obsessed over the thing enough and my OCD gets out of the way, so I can breath again.
  • I like to make others laugh — it doesn’t matter whether they’re laughing at my writing or because of my writing. Actually, it does. But, I wouldn’t ask them — so its still good.
  • I like to make people think. I am concerned that I might be obsessed about this too. Can OCD spread?
  • I think my life is now interesting enough that I can keep recounting my own stories — and perhaps use this as a way to avoid boredom. That is, once I’m done browsing YouTube, Flipboard, Twitter and irritating my 5 year old with gibberish.

Now here’s the question — if I have all those wonderful reasons, why am I finding this stuff hard?

After some analysis (did I say, I have OCD?), I realized there was one thing that I was missing. Hitting the publish button. Everyday.

I think I love my instant gratification monkey too much — to not give him what he needs.

So without further ado..here I go. Publish.