How Every Human Mind Has A Split Personality
The mind is a master of disguise and persuasion. It splits itself into two seemingly separate entities: victim and perpetrator. The perpetrator entity consists of two things: negative emotions such as fear, anxiety and sadness, and negative thoughts (“the world is cruel and hostile,” “people are untrustworthy,” “society is doomed” and so on.) The victim entity consists of thoughts about how these negative emotions and thoughts relate to a self-concept (“I don’t want to feel these emotions and think these thoughts”, “I shouldn’t feel and think like this”, “because I feel and think like this, my future is bleak.”)
The victim entity appears to be the recipient of the perpetrators attack, and thus somehow these two entities seem separate. However, both the victim and perpetrator consist of mind activity, nothing else. While the focus is on the content of thoughts and feelings, the story contained within mind activity, the separation between victim and perpetrator seems real. When the focus shifts to the structure and flow of thought and emotion, it becomes apparent that the victim and the perpetrator are one and the same.
Once the mind has split itself into two entities, you identify as the victim. You become totally sure that you are the victim of the minds attack, not realising that the attack of the mind and the recipient of this attack, the victim, are both the mind! You can observe this by watching the flow of thoughts. You might notice the thought “everything is fucked” enter your mind — perpetrator. Immediately after, the thought “I don’t want to feel like everything is fucked” or may arise — victim. It is likely that you identify much more strongly with the second thought than the first, because it appears to be in line with your desires. You imagine yourself to be someone who wants to feel a certain way and avoid other feelings, so when a thought appears which fits this idea you have of yourself, you identify with it; you mistake it for yourself. Thus, you come to see yourself as the victim of the mind, when in reality you are the one who observes it.