On being a wanderer !
It’s ok to be 25 and not know what to do with your life. I mean it. It’s ok. you are going to be ok. Society might tell you that you are not on your track. People may give you funny looks and shake their heads and wonder what the hell you are doing. Eventually you are going to start to worry too.
You might worry that there is something fundamentally wrong with you. you might wonder why you can’t get things figured out. you may feel guilty, like somehow you have failed. you will search frantically for a plan, something to cling to, something to make you feel as if you might have an idea where you are headed. May be you will quit your job, maybe you will join some NGO’s , may be you will move to some foreign country, maybe you will become a wandering hippie or just run away.
You will meditate, read everything. You will travel. You will try yoga. You will try things that might scare you. You will be poor. And somewhere in this search, you will realize that you are in love with your life. You are in love with every second of every minute of every day of it. You are in love with your challenges, with new perspectives, with new experiences, with learning new things and you could not imagine settling for a life or career that does not bring you the happiness you feel now. You won’t have it all figured out yet, but you’ll know what your life could be like.
And you will realize that it’s ok that your life isn’t following the plan you laid out when you were 20. And you might not know exactly how, but things will work out in the end.
Society will tell you to buy a home, car, earn money and find your partner before 30. People are going to say that you need to start thinking about benefits and retirement plan. Your family might wonder when are you going to settle down and start a family of your own. Your levels “responsibility” may be questioned.
Your success in life does not depend on those things. And if it takes a while for you to find where you are truly meant to be don’t worry. Feeling unsure and lost is a part of your path. Keep growing, keep loving.
