Cheat sheet for why I attracted certain types of relationships:
The person I am afraid of: the person I am afraid to admit I am to myself because of a meaning I’ve assigned to those attributes.
The person I reject: the aspect of me I reject mostly due to socialization.
The person I resent: aspects of myself I need to acknowledge and integrate more of into my own experiences in order to progress.
The person I hate: the person I am but don’t allow myself to be
The person I am jealous/envious of: what I don’t see in myself because of lack of self-esteem and resources.
The person I hold in contempt: the denial of my own insecurities which I secretly expect to ascend from a situation or reality due to a lack of acceptance and understanding in myself.
The person I love: aspects of myself I have compassion for.
The person I admire: aspects of me I haven’t yet awaken to.
The person who gratifies me: aspects of me where my need is not afraid to be vulnerable for it to be met through the help of others.
The liar: ways I lie to myself.
The bully: ways I bully myself. Indication of trauma, past emotional abuse particularly from early stages of life.
The unavailable person: emptiness inside of me I neglect to provide for.
The disappointing person: I can’t commit to reality because I am in pain from the meaning I gave to my own expectations of myself and others.
The passive-aggressive person: the aspect of me where I’ve neglected my own emotional needs and have grown unconscious to.
The narcissist: I denied my own emotional/esteem needs and lied to myself. I relied on the wrong people to define my value in society.
The sociopath: I abuse myself. Indication of low self-worth.
The psychopath: Manipulating/deceiving myself out of deep impatience to meet a need regardless of value. Detached from intuition. Usually indicative of overmedication or forcing a relationship/job that feels wrong.
The traitor: I betrayed my self; I did not honor my own integrity/values.
The infidel: reflection of not meeting my own intimacy needs in a relationship due to fear/lack of authenticity.
