Applaud you for having the courage to ask and to do so publicly. I think asking/challenging/evaluating is what makes us uniquely human. I don’t think I’m going out on a limb when I say that many, if not most, have sought similar answers. Look forward to seeing where your path takes you. You know my thoughts, but in this case, they are wholly irrelevant. Your life, your journey. Enjoy the freedom you have to ask and to seek your own answers.