I just want to write something

I’m poor at english, but i really want to improve my english level and communicate with you from all over the world, so forgive me about my poor gramma and wrong sentences.

This is the third year in my university, I work as a designer but i have not learnd design.I love design, i think it’s beautiful to creat a good picture with my own hands, the feeling is so good. This was all my thoughts about design before i have went into society.

I had my first job in April, 2015,it’s a wedding company, when i first got a real project, my brian was empty and i don’t know what to do. I really did my job badly and the distance between my school and my company was so far, it often took me 4 hours to get back and forth which really cost a lot of my energy. However, my first job makes me to realize how bad i did in my job.

So i practise more and learn more about design，i search a lot of good designers to learn how they improve their skills. Few months later,i truly got a little improvement, just a little. And then, i got my second job, it’s an internet&advertisement company. I had got along with my new company and colleagues for entire one month.

Then i find two things during this month. Firstly, i’m still not good enough to handle a lot of designs, i really need to do plenty of “homework” to be a better person and do not waste time on watching tv. Secondly, i’m really not good at communication, i’m nearly lost my confidence to chat with my colleagues,bosses and my friends.Thirdly, i’m to lazy to try new things, such as sports or a new resturant which makes me unhealthy, even sick. I really want to change these bad habits, they make me feel uncomfortable.

I know there is a long way and a hard travel, but i will do my best. Thanks to my dear girl friend, she is always standing behind me and give me supports. I wish her to get a good job and be a better person, even without me. Maybe the time for us is getting shorter and shorter, we will graduate in the end of June, leaving school means we will be in different cities and i know our family will not allow us to be together. But i love her, with all my heart.

Thanks to read my words, i think i’m a loser in my life and there is nobody i can talk to, so i write it down, no matter it is read or not, i just want to pour it out, i have been locked so long.