Thank you so much for sharing. As a fellow NYC resident and subway rider, I feel you. And, I only started to feel this recently in the past several months. And it does fucking suck. I appreciate what you say about anxiety offering connection. And how it did for you that day on the A. Anxiety absolutely makes me desperate for this connection, out of survival almost, and because of this, I often end up hearing people’s stories, connecting with others to find reassurance that they too have similar anxieties. Crazy how many of us bear this burden unkowingly. Or sometimes I’m connecting with others when I wouldn’t otherwise just to wait out rush hour. Again, thank you for sharing. You captured so perfectly something that is often so hard (and terrifying) to describe.