Let It Go!

How long can one hold on to grudges? A day or may be a year and so. Well I have been holding on to it for like six years now. Though the person against whom I held the grudge, tried his level best to mend the fences, I never gave in.

I couldn’t digest the fact that — this person who has ruined so many things for me back then, is now asking for my forgiveness. Is this real or just pretense? Why does it matter so much to him now? I kept asking myself.

One fine day I got a text message from an unknown number. I was wondering who it must be. I politely texted back asking “May I know who this is?” I got an instant reply stating so and so. I was like — Not again!

The look on my face changed from a subtle smile to a frown. I didn’t care to text back. I was embracing my ego. I let it fly high. A little later I thought may be I should give this person a shot to explain his act of meanness. So I picked up my phone and responded back to the text with “what is that you want now? My forgiveness? Hell no.”

He texted back. “Hi! I know and understand how hurt you would be. I really don’t know if it would help but I really am sorry for whatever I did to you back then. I realized it very late and every time I tried to talk about it, you would turn dead ears to me. I know my apologies aren’t enough but that’s all I could do now. SORRY!” — the text read.

Now each story has three sides. One is my side of the story ,the second is his side and third is the truth. After a couple more of text conversations, I came to know his side of the story, which I wasn’t sure if it was true. A part of me was ready to buy it but another part was still confused. But I decided to let go.

“Maturity is when your world opens up, and you realize that you are not the center of it”. What I failed to realize all this while was that I was hurting myself by holding on to these grudges, when letting it go was the best option. I also failed to respect the feelings of others, which makes me a terrible person.

So, I took a deep breath and let it go. I forgave him wholeheartedly for someone great once said “forgiveness does not change the past but it does enlarge the future”.