Adjusting

8.31.14

So I've been here for just over a week now. My first full week of class starts tomorrow. This morning I woke up, and at breakfast (which was delicious) I did some thinking. I thought about last night and then my current situation. Let’s start with last night…

Last night was a Saturday. I am in college. Do the math. So a few of us found ourselves at a frat party wearing togas. I was nervous becuase it was “my first real life college party”. Nothing crazy happened, but it was fun. Now I have an idea what to expect at a party. I stepped outside my comfort zone and talked to some new people. All in all I had a really good time even though I was nervous at first.

Now onto this mornings breakfast musings. I’m getting used to the fact that I’m here for sure now. Up until now, this whole first bit of college has really just felt like camp or some trip or something. I thought about how even though I’ve heard it a hundred times I really am starting my own life. It’s honestly terrifying. I’m still getting used to college and I’m sure that’s completely normal, but it’s very different. Before I came here, I had the opportunity to run cross country and track I ended up passing up that chance because I realized after a lot of running and thinking that I was considering running in college not becuase I really wanted to compete but becuase I really wanted the team atmosphere that I had in high school. I wanted to be part of a group and sitting one table over from the runners at breakfast got me thinking again. I’m starting to miss my friends and family and sense of belonging. Not that I don’t think I’ll find my niche here, but it kinda sucks not knowing where I’ll fit right now. I wouldn’t say that I’m homesick yet. Although, I’m starting to feel something.

-w