Aug 3rd…day three.

Today is day three of not drinking. I should say that I haven’t actually drank since Sunday, July 27th other then two goodbye sips of Miller Light Thursday night. But for the sake of rounding and accuracy, today is day three.

Yesterday was a day of firsts…

I went to my first house party type situation. I was armed with a cooler full of soda pop and a cozy and overall, I had a great time. I noticed myself wanting to drink simply due to the fact that everyone around me was slipping farther and farther into inebriation. There were a lot of jokes about my sobriety and a couple from friends eluding to me being more fun while drunk then sober, which I fear was more truth then joke. Also, a LOT of people repeat the same joke while drunk. I am sure I do also but it was very interesting to see and hear.

There also was a lot of, “if you were drinking, you wouldn’t be saying that!” situations. Which is probably true, I wanted to drive people if they wanted to leave but instead of that happening I was told repeatably that I was overreacting and they would “be fine”. Honestly, I probably wouldn’t have been saying that if I were to be drinking and that is one of the reason I chose to do this. I never never have been all that great at decision making sober or not. But being sober, you see the people you care about, or even complete strangers making decisions that mayyyyyyyy not be the best. And I know that I am guilty of think I am fine when I really had no business driving.

Once the party wound down, I ended up at Alibi. Being at a bar while not drinking was actually a lot easier then a house party. At a bar, people are more concerned with who they are with or themselves. I simply floated around with my glass of water unnoticed chatting with friends, dancing with my boyfriend and overall having a good time.

While on this experiment, I have noticed a couple things. Firstly, This is definitely more then just the casual thing then I thought. Only three days in I can tell hear my explanation of it changing for a more truthful one. Yes this is a personal choice for me but even deeper it is really just me looking for confirmation that this isn’t a problem. That I don’t need to drink. That I can function without it. That was a scary realization but onward I go! Secondly, people almost seem angry with me over this. Like I am calling them out, which I am certainly not. I want to think a lot of us are in the same place as I. Using alcohol has a crutch to hold themselves up in social situations or while alone. Perhaps me doing this is causing them to have doubts about themselves. I know people tend to mirror friends and family and I also know that this is a touchy topic for a lot of people so I understand that this is something that might cause other people to think or have feelings towards.

Well here I am, it’s Sunday, August 3rd. Day three. Here’s to a dry Sunday Funday!