Trans(ition) Update: 1 month on T

I’m officially one month on (low dose) Testosterone today.
I’m glad I put a “reminder” on my phone’s calendar a month ago that reads:

1 month on T! Be patient. Trust the process.

Because I am anything but patient. My wife and I were chatting the other night about this very personality trait of mine. She said that when I want something, I just really, really go after it — which can be both a great quality to possess, but also quite an anxiety-inducing quality at times too.

After so long of wrestling with my gender identity…now that I’ve come out as non-binary trans, and being open about my desire for more androgynous and/or masculine features…it’s like I can’t have these things soon enough.

Though it’s been tough, and there’s been some anxiety…all along the way, it’s been really fun and exciting. It’s like I’ve given myself permission to be like a kid in a candy store of transness. I take things off the shelf, play with them, try them on…and if they feel good, I keep them. Maybe for a while, maybe forever — it’s all perfectly okay.
Gender is fluid.

My wife & I at Pride in our hometown.

So, here’s what I’ve noticed since being on T for one month:

1. I’m hungrier. I want food all the time.
2. Quite a bit of bottom sensitivity and the teeniest bit of growth + increased sex drive.
3. On-again, off-again voice raspiness, phlegm, and the need to constantly clear my throat.
4. SWEAT.

Basically, I am a teenaged boy. Sweaty, hungry, horny.
I will say though, the sex drive has died down over the past week or so. This could be from sheer exhaustion of pretty much daily 5am wakings as my toddler (Bug) insists on getting up at this time.
It’s also been an average of 90 degrees this entire month, in addition to my binding full-time now. Hopefully as the weather cools my sweat won’t be so gross. As for hunger, well, I keep telling myself I’ll chill out on beer and sweets to try to avoid “dad bod.”

All in all, not a lot in the way of physical changes — but, I think already, so much personal progress and internal acceptance has occurred.

Oh. And I picked a name.

Andy.

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