
This post sat way too long in my drafts and i’m deeply embarrassed by my lack of discipline . Pardon my procrastination. (I will also just hit send and write another post instead)
“For how much longer will my body keep getting ready for a possible pregnancy? Must I continuously go through life menstruating? Is it a must?” A girl thought to herself somewhere between cramps and almost dying. Plus, I didn’t eat clean last month, cue agony. This clean eating is beginning to look like it’s a must and my bad habits hate to see it. Anyway, Oluwa said…
I can’t come to kill myself ~ Burna
I am grateful I discovered Morning Pages; a daily practice of writing down your thoughts in the morning in three pages. It’s one of those tools that improves clarity by allowing room for more conscious thoughts after airing out your subconscious thoughts through writing. At least that’s my understanding of it.
Learning a thing about obeying my creativity. I’ve become much more aware of when to cancel everything and make space for my creative flow given how rare it is to come by. So basically we could say that i’ve been answering my calls to creativity. *high 5s self*
Guarding my energy. For some odd reason, I always thought the phrase was a tad bit self-righteous because lol ‘guarding my energy’, what do you mean?? I’ve found that for me, it means finding the balance between being empathetic and taking on other people’s problems. I am wiser now and maybe a bit self-righteous too.
Bad energy stay far away~Wizkid
I heard someone’s version of events and I thought it was wild. People will show you things! Have you ever heard a story so ridiculous you wondered if it made any sense to the person who was on the receiving end of the story? But you know what Oluwa said…
I don’ charge my energy, no get time for no enemy ~Burna.
Trying to navigate through and sit with my painful emotions. Did I only discover this after isolation, running away and trying to numb them? Yes, yes I did. And when I found the hopelessness, disappointment, frustration, anger and grief just where I’d left them or saw them manifest in other ways that triggered more pain, I became aware of the need to observe and validate them all while focusing on the present and practicing self-compassion.
Understanding that sometimes, more often than not, the problem is me.
Proceeding with grace :)
