the word epiphany comes from the Greek word epiphaneia which means: “to have an experience of sudden and striking realization.” With that in mind, I can safely say that earlier today, I had my own experience of realization: that it’s time to live in the now.
for a while now, [the past week or two] I feel like I have been hiding inside my head, blaming only myself for how things have been these past few months. In my personal life at home — along with my wife, Stephanie — it was beginning to feel like one of us is working too much, while the other isn’t working enough: it only made sense to me [in my head] that it was my fault that things were this way.
that is, of course, until today —
While walking home from the bus stop, I abruptly came to terms with the realization that I know I’m going to have to be working somewhere that I didn’t think I’d end up.. even if it isn’t what I want. But I have no choice in this matter, I’ve made the decision to deal with it, as it’s still an income compared to no income. The best thing is: it’s just for now. That’s what I have to keep telling myself — I need this income in order to save for school; so I can get back into the field I want so desperately to be a part of.
So bring it on!
I am ready for what twists and turns I get thrown at me — I have every belief that one day, and one day soon, I will be back in that industry, It just doesn’t know it yet. I’m not only doing this because it’s something I want, but also to prove to those who think otherwise. I can do anything I put my mind to — and so can you! — I don’t need somebody telling me “I won’t make it.” Because one day, I will, and when I do — I’m coming back stronger than ever.
[edit: I’ve been meaning to write this for a few days now, I just didn’t know the proper wording — after that long walk, and I had that epiphany, it just “wrote” itself]
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