Experiment addiction and the positive uncertainty of life
IT ALL BEGAN A WHILE AGO. AS A PRE-PUBERTY TEENAGER I WAS A ADDICTED TO TRYING OUT NEW SPANS OF LIFE FORMS AS MUCH AS MY MOTHER BARELY COULD UNDERSTAND WHAT WAS GOING ON IN MY HEAD. I’M NOT SAYING A WAS A STEREOTYPICAL RIOT KID RAGING THROUGH MY ADOLESCENT YEARS, BUT I WAS CERTAINLY A CURIOUS MIND. SWITCHING FROM BEING A JESUS LOVING BELIEVER TO BECOMING THE WHITEST RASTAFARIAN ALIVE, TO ENTER THE WORLD OF PINK COLORED SPIKEY HAIRSTYLES AND PREACHING ANARCHY IN MY RURAL HOMETOWN ALL IN A MATTER OF MONTHS. I WOULD WHOLEHEARTEDLY LOVE TO HAND OVER AN OSCAR FOR PATIENCE TO MY PARENTS.
So being a curious creature is kind of in my nature and it didn’t really stop after moving into my own apartment in a city of millions. But it moved from just trying to find my younger self to also find a profession and finding myself, both parts didn’t really came to a stop and are ongoing ventures.
Here’s the thing, I learned to perceive this as a beneficial fact, a guinea pig to my own life you could say and although I learned a lot on how to deal with myself and my behaviors I still haven’t figured out half of the truth about it.
How to not quit anything and live a happy life…
… WOULD BE A WELL SELLING BOOK TITLE,
but not something I will advertise in this article. Who am I to tell you anything as pretentious as such a wise cracking recommendation.
Instead I want to share some stories on how to overcome uncertainty, guide yourself in new territories, experiment the hack out of life and just try to feel good about it. Whether it’s a frustrating experience at times or if it is an overall success. We have to appreciate both sides of the coin to gain strength, both mentally, and physically.
I went through quite a lot of personal, spiritual and professional transformations in my still quite young span of life and after each and every one I was certain, that now I got everything figured out. In the last couple of months, I again roamed through life changing shifts: I quit my business, started a new one, changed my dietary habits, started meditating, changed my athletic regiment and started a couple of new forms of active behaviors. But most importantly, I started self reflecting every action I pursue in a more mindful way than I have before. Now for the first time in my life, I’m not certain if my profession is the one I want to pursue forever, or if I will eternally stick to the mindset I’m in.
BUT THIS UNCERTAINTY IS A GOOD THING, AND IT FEELS GOOD TO EMBRACE IT.
What would life behold for us, if we knew the outcome of it, from the day we were salvaged from the womb of our mothers?
I came to the realization, that all those thoughts don’t really matter as long as we experience everything we do in the moment they actually appear in. Everything else will follow.
So with the words of Marcel Proust we want to be encouraged to partake in all of life’s scenarios:
“We don’t receive wisdom; we must discover it for ourselves after a journey that no one can take for us or spare us.”