always only almost

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i never jump
but sometimes
wonder as to be

/ squeezed between wheel and rail /
/ liquified into sidewalk cracks /
/ betrayed by the softness of water at terminal velocity /

a final taste of blood into quiet black
forever suspension
soul mixed into the city gutter

always only almost / 
the city self-harm paradox:
selfish + public
too many other’s
commutes, too, interrupt

missed the train announcement again
headphones too loud
head too cloud
unprepared for changes
anyway
someday
now