I write everyday. From my job as a professional writer, social media within my industry, and sometimes as a dreamer. Most days, I do okay on my requisite pieces; they are often perfunctory and just has to fit the sweet spot for the audience. But…once in a while when something big happens in my life — -it can be really good or very bad, I write from the heart and put out my best pieces. I am very sorry about your lost. Writing as you are doing now will help. It must be painful but allows the healing to begin. Keep writing, and with passion!