Thank you for that, honestly Medium is the only place I have. I have so much shame and insecurity that I have a hard time connecting with people in the real world. I have spent so much time alone that I don’t know how to meet people. I am packing my trash bag and with out shelter once again. I was homeless in SF for a month before my sister talked me into coming to stay at her place in Sacramento. The sad thing is I was going to harm reduction classes, busting my ass to get medi-cal, counseling, and a bed at a shelter and doing my best to stay sober while sleeping in my car; it was hard but at least I was getting some where and now I have nothing and am In a city where I know no one…. I am rocking back and forth trying to tell myself that I am a good person, that I am not worthless, that I don’t need to go use……. But sadly that’s all I want to do. I want to numb myself.