Lyrics and Memories
To Justine Win, with love
“Over and over again I tried to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends And all the while inside I knew it was real the way you make me feel”
All was started with a one hello, and there is something I feel, even though I knew you were different, I knew you were on top, and maybe I can’t be with you, but you made me fly, then I fall. All I wanted is to step in the same ground and breathe the same air as you do.
This is a collection of some melancholic lyrics I’m listening while writing this and our memories. I tried to collect them all, I hope I didn’t missed anything.
Magsinungalin ka please, di ko matitiis ang mundong ito kung di kita kasama
-Wag mong aminin
First time we saw each other, first letter you gave me. I still remember the smell of your handkerchief, the smell of you, even though it was already a year ago.
I can’t put words on how happy I am when I saw you for the first time, when you hugged me and say hi in our favorite coffee shop. The first time I heard your voice, the first time I saw your eyes, the first time I fall truly in love. I never thought that the day would come, but you’re not a person sitting all day wishing, you’re a risk taker, an action woman, a person who make things work, and up until now, I’m trying to be the same.
It was a fun three days, even though I didn’t know back then what is a date, and where to bring you, and what we will do. But it comes naturally. That was the day I promised that I will love you with all that I am, and with all that I had.
Will you come back in a heartbeat?
Don’t be confused of what a great thing we can be
We’ll take a walk at the same street
Can you tell me how life (Boston) is like without me?
HAHAHA! I still have this! It was a memory of you after all. I remembered giving Tita a favor for this. I don’t know why, but I’m happy when Tita thanked me. :)
I don’t think that i’ll see her again, but we shared a moment that will last till the end
Do you still remember what’s inside this? I came rushing to LBC when they called me I had a lost package, then they sent this package far away in the office that I picked this up the next day. Still worth it!
Dahil handa akong ibigin ka, kung maging tayo sa’yo lang ang puso ko
So this what came with the package. Remembered that day that I was actually thinking if i’ll buy this album, but you bought it for me anyways. In the end, I decided to wrap it again in plastic and return to it’s original state like the way you gave me. I was a lucky guy
Sige na please wag ng mainis, bumalik ka na sa akin
-Bumalik ka na sa akin
Came with the album, was this super sweet letters! You truly are artistic with words. No words to say, I’m speechless when read this. It was more than anything.
You thought I lost this, HAHAHAHA! Still on it’s original packaging. The R2D2 necklace you bought partnered with your bb8 necklace! It’s sweet! I think it was the only item of ours that was coupled.
Tinatawag kita, sinusuyo kita, di mo man marinig, di mo man madama, kay tagal din kitang mamahalin
It’s your birthday! and I gave you a fountain pen, and you wrote this. We’re like high schoolers, but this was sweet. Our first monthsary.
All with stick and the balloon. You gave this to me so I kept it. Remembered you in the airport playing a prank on me saying that you missed your flight because you over slept, then showing up carrying all this with a cake. It was a great day. I told you that I never celebrated my birthday that much, then you flew all the way from Cebu with a cake and balloon. Too bad I wanted to keep the cake but you made me eat all of it! (joke)
Another great gift you gave to me. Knowledge. How to change yourself the way you want. So much learning in this book. You really knew lots of inspirational books
Mundo ko’y baliktarin, Babalik-balik ka rin Tila di nauubusan ng hangin at ng paraan Lamunin man ng alon handa ako La-la-la-languyin, la-la-la-languyin Tangayin man ng hangin Maligaw handa akong La-la-la-lakbayin, la-la-la-lakbayin
I think this was your way on giving me a creative thingy, still you can’t beat my heart made scrapbook! HAHAHA! You loved me, but you stayed on the moon and didn’t come back :( (please come back)
Graphika Manila days. I know you have a bitter memories on this. And you swear that after three years, you’ll comeback as a speaker, and tell every one that you lost your phone, and organizers didn’t helped you, and I said I will be in the front row. Still, will support you on this!
Before you leave from Manila to Cebu, I gave you a set of letters to be read every day and was exactly numbered to the day we will meet again (am I sweet?). I hope you did that HAHAHA! There were some undelivered letters though, I’ll keep it in the box.
Still remember this? Hahaha the second food panda you ordered for me (the first one has no receipt, so I kept the second one). I even investigated what restaurant is this from, and discovered that it was from sweet ecstasy! Burger and Kamote Fries :)
Mataya taya, mataya taya Pagkabilang ng tatlo, takbo tayo papalayo Mataya taya, mataya taya Isa dalawa tatlo Iiwanan mo ako
You gave me this specs in Palawan, didn’t expect you to give me this. It was not about the specs, but it was about the thought and care you put on to me.. I will always remember that you cared for me. :) After our Palawan tour, I kept it in. Darn, I’m so conservative to the things you gave to me.
Yes, you didn’t gave me the book, but you gave me the idea that up until now, I’m trying to evangelize. Thank you for sharing me this, that made me grow even more.
You put this on my bag. I kept it by the way. HAHAHAHA! Actually I’m planning to give you some make ups and I kept this as a reference. But you said you didn’t need any. And that’s true, you’re a natural beauty.
at di ako desperado, sa WALANG KAPANTAY na pagibig mo, sa mga halik mong walang kasing tamis.
-Kung ayaw mo na sa akin
The real reason I came home early today because I’m actually crying when I read this for the nth time. And up until now, while writing this. I’m still holding to your words. This was the most memorable letter, a letter you just wrote in the back of a receipt, but full of love, I felt it all. You always made me believe in myself, you were the first who encourage me by citing my achievements even though that it was just small. “Sana tumagal tayo” :’(. Up until now, Mahal na mahal kita.
Cute. Cute. Cute. I don’t know where to put this. But now I know. I’m waiting for you to make me something like this though HAHAHAHA joke.
Still haven’t eaten all of it. It was so good that I just want to eat it in special times. Thank you for this!
The Box! Steve’s house, hahahaha I remembered all the struggles picking it up and shipping it to you, I even kept secrets to you just not to make you feel guilty. But It was worth it! It was all worth it knowing Steve enjoys it and I know you’re happy with it. Im the happiest person every time I made you smile.
HAHAHA this was so unexpected. You have an unexpected mail, then you just gave it to me.
And It’s a wrap! Remember when we were in Gaisano Mall, shopping for Steve’s Viv decors, you saw a chest box there, you said you’ll put there all our memories? This is your box now. I’m actually quite emotional writing this as I recollected all of our moments. But you are worth it. Will close this box for now, and hope for you to come back.
If loving you is all that means to me
When being happy is all I hope you’d be
Then loving you must mean
I really have to set you free
-Set you free
Justine, this may be my last post about us, about you, I will try not to post anymore. I hope you read all this. One day if you miss me, you know you can always come back to me, text me and I’ll come to you, and buy you a banana split, with brown sugar and nestle yogurt shake in the stall behind us. HAHAHA!
I don’t want your body
But I hate to think about you with somebody else
Eventually, you’ll go to many places, meet many people, Many will have crush on you, and fall for you, find someone attractive, and eventually you’ll be in love again on one of them. Then you’ll find again yourself being happiness to other. You’re not hard to love as you think you are.
’Cause if one day you wake up and find that you’re missing me And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be Thinking maybe you’ll come back here to the place that we’d meet And you’ll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street So I’m not moving, I’m not moving
-The man who can’t be moved
As long as you’re not with someone else, as long as my heart can remember, I will love you.
My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury,
or wear as jewelry, which ever you prefer
Im yours Justine. Thank you for the memories.