Apr 8, 2020The Confederacy: Heritage, Not Hate?In light of yet another Mississippi governor celebrating yet another “Confederate Heritage Month”, I’d like to revisit the Confederacy, and this romanticized narrative that many are affording it. /// According to the Civil War Trust, the 11 states who made up the Confederate States of America did so for this…Confederate Flag6 min readConfederate Flag6 min read
Mar 12, 202003.12.2020I haven’t written in a while, and it’s not because I haven’t wanted to. It’s just that I’ve sort of slipped back into that place where I’m embarrassed by my struggle. I also don’t want to be defined by my struggle, so I’ve been hoping another muse would take flight…Depression2 min readDepression2 min read
Feb 13, 2020Believing in MagicI don’t know when it happened, and I don’t know why. All I know is that it did. There was a time when magic existed in my life, and there was a time when I believed in it, but I’ve lost it. …Depression2 min readDepression2 min read
Feb 3, 202002.03.2020Good morning, everyone! Today is the first day that I’ve felt a bit normal, and I’m trying to enjoy it. I mean, I don’t know that I know what “normal” necessarily means anymore, but I don’t feel as hopeless today as I have. I’ve been hoping against hope that a…Depression2 min readDepression2 min read
Jan 31, 202001.31.2020Up and down. Left and right. Inside out. I don’t know. Completely unsettled. The immediate stressor was removed when I quit my job, but I’m still fighting battles that I thought would disappear a lot faster. Alas, that’s not how it works. …Depression2 min readDepression2 min read
Jan 30, 202001.29.2020So, the thing that’s been killing me pretty much ended yesterday. It was my job. I was able to quit, and I’ll be starting a new one in a couple of weeks. I felt a lot of relief initially, but I also had to visit my psychiatrist, and I had…Depression2 min readDepression2 min read
Jan 26, 202001.25.2020I’m still having a hard time. Going to sleep is hard. Waking up is hard. Getting out of the bed is even harder. Taking a shower is hard. Getting dressed is hard. Being present for my wife and kids is hard. Going to work is the hardest. Every second of…Depression3 min readDepression3 min read
Jan 18, 2020Dying Would Be Such a ReliefHave you ever had that thought? I have. This week, even. No, I don’t really want to die. I have a beautiful family that I love. They need me, and I need them. It’s just that life feels like SO MUCH sometimes. The idea of just pressing STOP sounds incredibly…Depression2 min readDepression2 min read
Jan 15, 2020Today is Wednesday, January 15th, and I can’t move.I’m not proud of my struggles, but I’m tired of pretending they aren’t there. I’m tired of going through the motions. Most of all, I’m tired of feeling alone. I’m not going to hide from these things anymore. …Depression4 min readDepression4 min read
Sep 18, 2019Sorry to disappoint. No, really.Who are you? It seems simple enough, doesn’t it? But can you really share the fullness of who you are with another person? Sure, it’s easy to give people just enough to get by, but does anyone really know your most hidden places? Have you ever been completely honest with…Life Lessons4 min readLife Lessons4 min read
