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I haven’t written in a while, and it’s not because I haven’t wanted to. It’s just that I’ve sort of slipped back into that place where I’m embarrassed by my struggle. I also don’t want to be defined by my struggle, so I’ve been hoping another muse would take flight…

Good morning, everyone!

Today is the first day that I’ve felt a bit normal, and I’m trying to enjoy it. I mean, I don’t know that I know what “normal” necessarily means anymore, but I don’t feel as hopeless today as I have. I’ve been hoping against hope that a…

Up and down. Left and right. Inside out. I don’t know.

Completely unsettled.

The immediate stressor was removed when I quit my job, but I’m still fighting battles that I thought would disappear a lot faster. Alas, that’s not how it works. …

So, the thing that’s been killing me pretty much ended yesterday. It was my job. I was able to quit, and I’ll be starting a new one in a couple of weeks.

I felt a lot of relief initially, but I also had to visit my psychiatrist, and I had…

I’m still having a hard time. Going to sleep is hard. Waking up is hard. Getting out of the bed is even harder. Taking a shower is hard. Getting dressed is hard. Being present for my wife and kids is hard. Going to work is the hardest. Every second of…

Have you ever had that thought?

I have. This week, even.

No, I don’t really want to die. I have a beautiful family that I love. They need me, and I need them. It’s just that life feels like SO MUCH sometimes. The idea of just pressing STOP sounds incredibly…

Who are you?

It seems simple enough, doesn’t it?

But can you really share the fullness of who you are with another person?

Sure, it’s easy to give people just enough to get by, but does anyone really know your most hidden places? Have you ever been completely honest with…

Jason Whittington

Husband. Daddy. Friend. Writer. Musician. Reader. Listener. INTP. Cigar Enthusiast. Coffee Dependent. Dare to know.

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