Thank you for writing this. I have always felt an aversive sense of fear when it comes to topics of suicide. I have known several people intimately that have battled with self harm and suicidal tendencies. I have always listened, nodded, hugged, and tried not to make them feel uncomfortable or judged. But I haven’t been able to access the deep empathy and presence that I feel the person deserves from me.
Being close to my grandma as she passed last year helped me find more strength and presence during those moments of overwhelming closeness with mortality we humans face. This story helps me access that strength when reflecting on experiences in the space of suicide, and I believe it will help me find strength in these moments with people I love and care about in the future. Please keep writing and sharing.