An Up and Down Week.
September 16th.
. I have that soul crushing feeling from not running again today. It’s not that I’m that sick, it’s just that my energy level is low, and combined with not falling asleep until late, I just didn’t have it in me today.
. But, I am not going to let a Friday pass without blogging.
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. This week has been mixed with many emotions. The beginning of the week I was feeling great about my running and a few events that I have coming up on my calendar. However now, I’ve had some lows. Yes the running, but also there is one project that I should be working on, but I’m not sure if I’m good enough, and it’s froze me solid. Solid to the point where I can’t think of what to do. In the beginning I was excited, and honored to be ask, but now, I am doubting myself. The ideas just haven’t come as free flowing as they usually do, and now doubt is the main player.
. Of cause I know how I should get past this problem, and I’m confident in the process working, but I just keep putting it off. Not because I don’t want to be involved, I really do. It’s just that I’m scared, scared that I won’t be able to come up with something good enough.
. The thing is, I need an amazing true short to tell, but I’m not sure if I’ve got one, well I take that back, I think I’ve got one, but can I remember it. I want to tell an amazing story that will blow the minds of those who will hear it.
. I can often be lazy and sloppy, but I also have a desire to be the best. Well the best I can be. I know I will never be great, but I’d like to be good.
. I like to make myself proud of my own accomplishments. I don’t know how others feel, but I feel of myself starting at zero.
. I was born in a small town in the state of Victoria in Australia. I didn’t do well at school, and by the age of 24, I didn’t have a cent to my name. But a year later I finally took some control of my life and haven’t looked back.
. My goal now is to exhaust every fibre of my being, combined with improving any tiny piece of talent I might have, and reach personal achievements. I know life’s not a Disney movie, but it is what you make it.
Thank you,
Craig Atkinson.
