First Reflection + Short Story
As I begin to read through Letters to a Young Teacher…
The best of teachers are not merely the technicians of proficiency; they are also ministers of innocence, practitioners of tender expectations. They stalwartly refuse to see their pupils as so many future economic units for a corporate society, little pint-sized deficits or assets for America’s economy, into whom they are expected to pump “added value,” as the pundits of the education policy arena now declaim. Teachers like these believe that every child who has been entrusted to their care comes into their classroom with inherent value to begin with. -Jonathan Kozol, Letters to a Young Teacher
Let me begin by briefly returning to yesterday’s story. I want to clarify something: I am not truly afraid of teaching. Rather, I am excited, and I anticipate a future of good things. My concern lies with the uncertain amount of time it will take me to become a fluid and confident teacher, a maker of differences in the lives of young people. I think of it like driving a car; before I got my license, I was terrified of entering onto the interstate — years later I can’t understand what had me so worried. But like my sister told me once, look at the people around you — if all of those knuckleheads can do it, there’s no reason you can’t do it, too.
When I think about some of the teachers I’ve met, I can’t help but comparing the situations. Of course, I’ve met some wonderful teachers, people with the talent and dedication of superheroes. But I’ve also met some men and women who either a) simply don’t understand young people and can’t relate, or b) don’t really care about real learning. If these people can carve out a (semi)successful career in education, there’s no reason a bright, invested young man can’t flourish with some practice and experience.
I recently started reading the book Letters to a Young Teacher by Jonathan Kozol (hence the quote above). If you’ve read anything by Kozol, such as Savage Inequalities or The Shame of the Nation, you probably don’t see him as a super “up-beat” writer. Letters, however, is a more hopeful book, in which he guides a new teacher through “the joys and challenges and passionate rewards of a beautiful profession.” I know what you’re thinking, and you’re right: this is exactly the kind of thing I want right now. Therefore, over the next two weeks, I plan to read a chapter (hopefully each day) and tell you all about it.
The first chapter, needless to say, is a bit introductory, so I won’t go crazy trying to reflect on it. He says his “thank you”s and tells “Francesca” (the intended recipient) that she’s going to do great, and so on. Let’s move on. From this chapter, I took a sense of mystery, compassion, and care that is required for good teaching. Kozol says that there is magic in teaching young children, and that you need to be in the classroom to see it, that others (education “experts” and politicians and pundits) can’t and won’t understand without experiencing that magic for themselves.
I actually had read the first several chapters previously, so I know the book is going to get a lot better (tomorrow). I just wanted to take a moment to return to yesterday’s story and set things up for the next couple weeks. If you’re still with me, I am grateful. Please take the following short-short story as thanks.
There was an old man sitting in a cafe. He placed a spoon into a mug and twisted it several times before taking it out and placing it directly on the wooden table. Behind him, the door to the cafe opened and a quick breath of air pushed his napkin onto the floor. He bent over to pick it up and noticed someone standing over him beside the table.
He looked up into a younger face that gave him a feeling of distant familiarity, like a little pinprick that started in his neck and moved down into his kidneys.
The young man sat across from him. He looked nervous.
“Yes?” asked the old man. “Can I help?”
“I’m you,” said the young man. The old man looked at the young man, his face lacking expression.
“Do you not recognize me?” he asked.
The old man looked down into his coffee, and he didn’t respond.
“You don’t believe me,” said the young man.
“What difference does it make?”
“I need to ask your advice,” said the young man. “I need to know what you did about — ”
“Go away.”
“But — ” started the young man.
“It doesn’t matter.”
“How can you say that?” asked the young man.
“It won’t change anything,” said the old man. “You get to this point in your life, to the point I’m at now, and you’ll see. Nothing will have changed. It won’t… It won’t make a difference.”
The young man didn’t say anything. He looked into the mug of coffee. The old man returned the spoon to the mug and twisted it several times.
“Looks cold,” said the young man.
“I don’t drink it.”
“Listen, I’m sorry. I’ll go,” said the young man.
He stood and took two steps towards the door when the old man spoke.
“Just…” he said. The young man stopped and looked at the old man. The old man’s eyes didn’t move from the mug. He didn’t turn his head.
“Just do what you want to do. Do what your — damn, I don’t know — your heart, do what that wants. Just do what that wants.”
After a moment, the young man walked away. The old man didn’t watch him go, just as he hadn’t watched him arrive. He heard the door, and for a second he heard a pair of notes, high then low, a birdsong he hadn’t picked up in years.
The old man thought about the young man and the decision he had to make. He smiled at what might have been and placed both hands around the hot ceramic mug. Then he brought the cup to his mouth and took a sip.