The Best Friend

Had a silly quarrel with him today because I was so pissed at his best friend’s existence.

It’s true. PMS hit me pretty hard and I exploded. But every time I think of the best friend, I can’t help it but to feel irritated and defeated. The fact that she knows A LOT about my boyfriend, the fact that she thinks she is on the same level as I am.

At the end of the argument (when I was actually tired), he told me he didn’t want to quarrel (again) and let me call the relationship off if I wanted to. Again, I thought he wanted it, so I said “I’m sorry we have to end it like this”. And honestly, I wanted to talk to him at night to apologize.

He complied at first. But when I said “I love you!☺”, I think it hit him that we were really breaking up. So he asked me if I wanted to break up.

And the conversation turned into “why he did not want to break up” and he apologized. At that moment, I melted. Actually every time he apologizes, I would melt.

I told him that he “can afford losing me”. He said he cannot. I wish he said it in a complete sentence. He continued by saying that he wants to bear with me flipping every time I think of his friend. Why?

“Because I want to be with you. I don’t want to lose you.”

Dear oh dear, just for how long have I been waiting for you to tell me that.

Oh dear, just how am I supposed to leave you if you are telling me all of these?

Today, we quarelled. Today, we forgave each other.

Today, I fell in love with him again.